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Heaven

2009-12-13T07:57:00.000-08:00

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I find the concept of heaven selfish.

Lets say you are person A and you love person B as a friend/lover/spouse or smt.

Lets say you go to heaven and B does not becuz of reasons like sin or lack of religion.

How can heaven be heaven without that love one of yours? tell me?

I feel that this concept of heaven is of people with selfish desire. To justify that dying isn't that bad for a total lack of anything after death is too scary to understand.

People who decided people who do good deed and go heaven and never think of others and just selfish people who only think of going heaven themselves.

How could you be in heaven if your mum was in hell right? So if you did the most holy deeds in the world and your parents are the worst, ain't it not going to be a good heaven once you died?

My friend told me that man would be too in love with god to wonder about anything else. I say that is not a good reason, you mean i will forget my mum who did so much for me and went down becuz of god? What kind of son am i? What kind huh? i deserve to be in hell that way.

So this controversy makes me wonder...

If i ask people who believe they will go heaven and want to go heaven this question " Would you go to hell if 1000 people go to heaven for your sacrifice, will you do it?"

if they say they won't give up their position, ain't they selfish? Ain't religion talking about selflessness and serving the mass?

So is the right people going heaven? people who wan to enjoy life after death.

And if god preaches sacrifice, after 1000 people go to heaven becuz of you, ain't u suppose to be up there? and if you are up there again, you can do that again and get 1000 more, then won't u get everyone in heaven?

I say, i will go to hell and if i am good enough to go heaven, sent me back to hell, i trade 1000 lives for my soul.

How could i enjoy my afterlife knowing people are suffering? I dun care if they deserve it, god is abt forgiveness, so why isn't it given? Dun tell me it is about them learning their lesson, if god's light is so good to blind my eyes from helping my love ones, ain't it easy to change 1000 people point of view?

So people who die also wanna go heaven, hear me , can you sacrifice your soul to hell to save 1000 souls from hell?

Cuz i will, even though i dun wan to, I will take a sword and shield and face the devil, and even if my legs have became jelly and my hands shaking uncontrollably with fear, i will face hell and i know i will lose cuz i am just a soul but i will do it anyway.

How could i enjoy my afterlife knowing other souls are suffering?

*Note, no offense to anyone, i am just questioning the idea, not the person

Revival

2009-12-13T07:23:00.002-08:00

Well, lets begin.

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Title:Revival

Well this is the revival of my blog so, yep i am back. However i dun think this is a good post

Well, wan to talk about hatred and fear. I am no genius, i am just a man, trying his best to comprehend the world around him. Expressing who i am at the same time.

Hatred

Humans always need something to hate so that they can be loved. The balance of nature.
To identify yourself as part of a group, you must do what the group does, even hate others even if it is illogical hatred. Such as some White Americans hating the black. To identify yourself as one group, you need to hate another. Same with an experiment with a close exosphere. The scientist form 2 group. We will always hate others so we can love others.

Hatred is not understanding. Not understand why a person do this or that. A person eating paper is considered crazy and hated or ignored. However to a crazy person it is perfectly logical. Logic is something that means different thing to a different person.

There is only one way to get rid of hatred.

To understand is not so easy. It is to forgive the actions that to you, seem foreign and illogical.

However, if you do it is normal. It is a selfish but normal desire to be part of the group. Even at the expense of others.

I seen what hatred and misunderstanding has done to others. I havn't seen all but, i can say if it is 1/10 as bad as i see it.....

Man and woman ignored. I can only imagine what the pain has done to their mind and soul. Some have broken, others does not. The great thing about it is that they are covered in so much darkness, they can see even a sliver of light.

Sometime i wish i was god and able to split myself into millions and help everyone. After all i bet i contribute to some pain or another, just by the lack of attention

Awaken

2009-12-13T07:23:00.001-08:00

Well, i guess i will just practice GP and nonsense on this blog.

Well, here goes the unsung pages i will write

2009-12-03T02:32:00.000-08:00

I am not worthy of the last post, i guess it is suppose to be a cruel half-ass life for men, i guess i was just too baby to find out. Well i did now

Pheonix Dusk

2009-01-17T06:17:00.000-08:00

Title: Pheonix Dusk

Well, Hello Readers, This is the LAST TIME i will write on the blog for 2 years.

This blog begin in Jan 2007 but is used from Feb 2008 onwards, it has been fun and feels good to let out steam, but i have study to catch up to.

Editor: Roger Erh
Age:18(Jan 2009)
Blog Use: Feb2008-Jan2009

I have things and people more important than this blog

Well this is wishes to anyone who read regardless if i hate you or love you or i dun know you

Good Luck in Life

All Will be well for 2 years

Birthday

2009-01-03T09:41:00.000-08:00

Well my b'day is 11 jan, so my mum decided to celebrate in advance as she is working on that date
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I reflect back on the entire year as i knew this fews days is the day where i can ask for anything i wan and get it( most likely )

So i thought and thought and found out i needed nothing, HP, laptop, xbox360, books and etc. I needed nothing material.

So i make this wishes on my b'day.

I wish i can make better use of time

What i really wan is a second helping of study time, friends,family,love,her and buffet dinner. All this require time and time is what i dun have due to A level and stuff.

So my wishes of:
More time with family
More time with friends
More time with her
More time with studying
More time to exercise(so i can eat more food XD )

became.....
Better use of my time

So whoever is up there, give me the wisdom to spend my time wisely.

I wish that my parents will listen to my sister more and listen to each other.
I cannot describe the words to you to tell you that listening is the most powerful tool anyone can have

Trust me, it is the most powerful tool when not only you listen but listen with real sincerity

And here is something straight from my head.....

A man's life isn't about cash
A man's life isn't about success
A man's life isn't about lust
A man's life isn't about war
A man's life definte not as all these, but as a single question he asked himself with his final breathe from the abyss
Did i try to make a difference?

All is well

Yoz

2008-12-28T07:34:00.000-08:00

Hello readers,

Well, i tot of something and i have to say, i should have more faith and trust in the person's character, damn mysef, why can't i do that, why can't i do that. All i wanted was to make sure the person is happy, damn damn. why?

Well, i reflected upon it plenty of times regarding the problem. The problem is everytime i have deep feelings for anyone, i fear to lose them, fear leads to self-protection, babbling and many others. Fear -> (Something) -> leads to Failure and Suffering. how i wish i can banish fear.

Damn me, why can't i have faith in the person. after so many months, i find myself a failure to believe everything that the person said and not refer back to the person's character.

Sigh.... as long as there is fear and uncertainty, i cannot meet with success.

The person is too nice, the person wants me to love her without conditions, like i promise i will stay with her, she said she doesn't wan it and wan to know whether i love her without it.

I do and yep it is a her...sigh.

Now i am confused, i dun remember what is the problem, and seeing her trying to ignite a smile and forget the past, made me feel like a jerk.

I have to solve it at first as i lost a good friend by ignoring the problems while it eats me alive. This made me try to solve problems at the bud

Sigh... i see no solution

God(can be Allah, can be Budda, can be RA, can be Zeus, can be God,etc, depending on the real one)

I pray i can make her happy
I pray i can have faith in her
I pray i can have confidence in myself for her
I pray i can try not to solve anything and be a listening ear

Strange that those i hold dear is those that i hurt the most.

All is Well i hope

Sigh...home again

2008-12-08T02:43:00.000-08:00

Hello, i told u i will give a freaking loong blog, dun wry there will be plenty of pictures
Farm Stay
Day1
Day2
Day3

Day1
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Woke up at 7am, meet all my cousin at 7.30, one of my aunt was late so we left at 8.30....

we were off to a bad start, there was a traffic jam and the 3 hr ride became 6 hr ride, we were a group of 4 cars, 1 sunny, 2 altis and the last one i forgot

So we were at singapore waiting for the
checkpoint, my cousin and i were restless and we came out of the car to take some shots

This is the sunny, my seat is empty, that is my dad, my sis, my mum and my cousin, her name is silver

This is the black altis, the family of my 2nd uncle in there
and my 1st aunt(purple) in there

This is the golden/silver altis, the family of my 3rd aunt(pink and yellow and the one in my car) and 1st uncle in there

the last car i have no shot but my 2nd aunt is in there

The car my uncles are using are rented and my 1st uncle's car keep breaking down stuff and can't get above 100
my 2nd uncle's car can't get to 120 without vibrating the entire car

after the freaking long trip we reach the farm

The farm is huge, with lilys everywhere

My sister is trying out the obstacle course
well, she was wet after doing half of it, my mum scolded her for wetting the jeans on the first day(hour)

My dad having fun with my 2nd uncle after rescuing my sister's shoes

then we went boating, my 1st and 2nd aunt can't row a boat to save their lives, i row with my 3rd aunt and my sister, even though there was water in the boat up to our feets

here is my 2nd uncle with his family posing for me

Here is a picture of my sister as she is struggling to get out

Here is my dad helping my 2nd aunt go back to shore

she look so scared

After that we went inside the duck area and the ducks ran, it was funny XD

Here is the picture of the ducks my dad took

After that we went to one part of a farm where i caught a rare sight, bugs mating

it is damn rare woooah

i saw them on the leaf-bared lady finger plant

Here is my mum eating the beans in the farm

Here is my 1st uncle and cousin

Later at night, we went to the night walk, big moon nothing scary, later when we went back, there was a swift nest near my room, so cute

Sms someone and went to sleep, had a good dream i was on my favourite bed but woke up to...

Day2
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Woke up at 7+, found out that my dad caught a fish last night

we went out for a HUGE walk, went to see all the areas that some of them we saw yesterday,

we went to the padi field and fruit field, not the mention the wild boar storm remains(alot of broken trees), we took a group photo

We went to the padi field, this is why i came to farm for, haha, it ain't that bad, in the mud, the only thing that may harrass you is the werid sinking floor which make u dun wanna move and the trip to go there is full of tall grass

Here is a water spider

After that tiring trip, it was lunch where everyone ate the fish my dad caught , it was nice
Then we went out to get BBQ stuff and took a break from the farm, my cousin bough oil and stuff all so freaking cheap...i bought a cup of ice-cream with no expiry date( no stomach ache)

Here is my sister with the dog in the farm

4+ we came back, my dad started to fish with the rest of my cousins watching... i grew tired and retired to the room to play psp and tink of something,

when i came back they caught 5 fishes, i was like wow, instead of using bait, they use fish food(those round balls)

Here is a few pictures of my cousins and sister in action

sadly i miss it all, ah heck, i can't stand the waiting anyway

They all caught a few fishes

Then it was BBQ time, i gave the 2 small fish to the kitten, so cute, then we cook the rest of the fish, barely out of it's natural habitat...so fresh and delicious, no seasoning at all

My cousin all participated cooking the food

after that my dad continued fishing while my cousins who became hooked to it, continued fishing with my sis till the rain came rin 12am and forced hthem home

Day3
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It was still raining

After morning breadfast, we went home, my cousins and sister were crazy abt the fishing and wanted the rain never to stop so that the water may flood the roads and stuck us in the farm

it nearly did

there were 3 times where the cars could hav been flooded

This is a picture of the drivers figuring out how to cross

I had the classic water spray on guy kinda thing on TV, my dad said i was stupid, i agreed

imagine me at the side of the car and u get the picture

however we managed to go thru, and whew.....haha home sweet home

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All is well

Helllo dudes

2008-11-24T05:48:00.000-08:00

Yesterday>>>>>>>
cloudy sun

Ok i am sweeping away the dust for now XD

I am having a really really busy holiday, so didn't have time for this

Anyway, sweeping away the dust for now...cough cough cough... i dun tink i will update this place much

Anyway....i love the holidays...fun exciting and etc(can't tell u why sry)

Rainbow>>>>

O yea i went to malaysia a while ago...here is a hamster video...so cute

U have to look sideways cuz i took it from the wrong video, anyone who knows how to turn it ??

Here is a picture of JE ice-skating area>>>>>

After it was torn down

I going to farm stay soon and i going to take out all my braces soon, so i will have plenty of photos to upload soon

Soo let me collect more dust for awhile

All is Well

it Ends

2008-10-29T05:44:00.000-07:00

Haha, Long time no post

Malaysia Trip
School Last Few Days
QueensTown

Went to Malaysia, Haha Bought alot of stuff, good stuff and unhip(u get it) stuff

Well, We went there to eat dinner too, the food wasn't that good but we saw kittens and it's mum, damn cute

School Final Days was ok, became damn slack, skip plenty of lessons and didn't care much, but i cannot say it wasn't fun nor boring

Here is one moment when i took cat sniffing glue again...sigh

Glue is bad for health Cat

(actually it is medication to clear nose, for those ppl who are jumpy to get the cops)

This is my sis and i in Queenstown, i was looking to put a logo on many different shirt, but it seems they only can put a logo on the same shirt many times -_-, no point

My sis and i have fun >>>>

All is Well

Maria

2008-10-26T07:35:00.001-07:00

O this is a good video

it is abt a girl call maria and i tink it is abt the guys helping her achieve big stuff of her dreams

Time

2008-10-22T06:31:00.001-07:00

Time to spend some quality time alone on thursday, i am going to be 'sick' so i won't attend sch, quite bad flu, i may need to go queenstown to see the doctor, maybe even go to the shopping centre to make shirts...who knows....

Anyway, Life is Great, there are rough edges, but it is quite true to say that god wan us to be happy, not dumb happy, but happy. And i will try my best to create smiles

All is well

Roger

2008-10-18T20:52:00.000-07:00

You know, everytime i close to emo, i see my friends and family worried. That really breaks my heart. They give advice, demand why they stress me and stuff.

it is things like this that makes me think we shouldn't emo and stuff. For i hate to worry people

Thank You all of You, I will get stronger

Thanks You Cat and My sis especially

Good Job for those who seen thru my cloak of happiness

I hope i can stay this way, needing just a spot of love to live

Sigh,Only Love and Pain Give Strength, Get Stronger

All is Well

Emo Time

2008-10-16T07:32:00.000-07:00

Fuck, the sinking feeling of hollowness again, every few weeks sure have this fucking feeling....sigh

Well, this is as close to Emo as i can get, maybe i need to bitch abt a few things to relieve stress.

-I am scared of results, i either promote or .........there won't be an alternative

-My parents and sister giving me stress, tell me what to do and complain here and there? can't u hell leave my life alone ?

-Sigh, it is sooo easy to chat with strangers and girls now, but why, fucking why when i chat with important ppl to me, i feel like i can't say much? i know i can, i know i fucking can, the ability is in me, why can't i use it ?

i know i have it, i know, where is the key ?

All is quite well

For You

2008-10-13T05:41:00.000-07:00

This is my favourite song tis time of the year, by one of my favourite group, The Calling
and in my favourite Movie DareDevil, This isn't the actual lyrics, but i dun care i like this way

For You-The Calling
I have a vision
I am justice
Never thought that I could love
Living in shadows
Fading existance
It was never good enough
Within the darkness
You are the light that shines the way
But you're trapped in violence
I can be the man who saves the day

I'm there for you
No matter what
I'm there for you
Never giving up
I'm there for you
For You

Someone's changed me
Something's saved me
And this isn't who I am
Although I was blinded
My heart let me find out
That truth makes a better man
I didn't notice
That you were right in front of me
Our masks of silence
We'll put away so we can see

I'm there for you
No matter what
I'm there for you
Never giving up
I'm there for you
For You

Within the darkness
You are the light that shines a way
In this blind justice
I can be that man who saves the day

I'm there for you
No matter what
I'm there for you
Never giving up
Cause you know it's true
You were there for me
And I'm there for you
For you
For you
For you

Love it

All is Well XD

End of the line, beginning of an era

2008-10-07T03:06:00.000-07:00

Blog Reply
Sry all took so long to reply

Jolene: For Fun cannot ah ?
Jackie:He is Stuck XD
Cla-ri-cia: Ok i think i get this correct
Amir:Sure
xiaojie:Ok done
Jackie: Dun be an ass, u will get top 10 again, i just a normal guy
Andrew:Thanks
Windea: Yup, i will go sch to see you soon

Exams ended, I AM FREEEEEEE, goddamn i am free...well not exactly here is what i PLAN to do in the coming months

-Get the theory test for driving(if the 21 rule does not apply to me)
-Go out and help out volunteer stuff
-Revise Chem
-Take Phy tuition for next year
-Practice Ecos
-Get a Job
-Plan for stuff again

The theory to not get in the mood of play eat sleep shit is to not play eat sleep shit and do not start that cycle XD, this way i can do all the things i wanna do up there
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Here is a few pictures of 08S2 and 08S5 studying together before the exam

here is cat, desmond and Glenn seriously studying...look at their faces

As if glenn can be serious haha

I will take LOOOTS of pictures from now on so stay tune

This is me, with clarica(spell wrong but who cares) hui min and Tomato

See tomato pinching me? Damn him

This is me, and them and Eileen who was hiding in the previous picture

I look rather ok for once in a picture>>>

Other than that i always look ugly

I hope it is a busy busy busy holiday, cuz that means it is a GOOOD HOLIDAY

Eileen threatening me with death if i win her at minesweeper

O btw, watch Eagle Eye, Damn nice, haha, watched it today and was AWESOME

haha

ok make this short, bye

All is Well

hint of the Vidicator

2008-09-13T03:29:00.000-07:00

Ok here is an update everybody

here is the topic
Effort
MediaCorp
T-Shirt School
Whzzup

Here is something Glenn did...try to pee without having pee
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At the other end, is the result......
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EFFORT

Here is to all with problems.

You must not feel any guilt after trying your best.

You all ain't superman and woman

We are made to believe by trying our best, we have the outcome we desire

but sometime we still fail

However, every failure is made to make us stronger

Then we must not fail to stand back up

That one is impossible to fail for it is only internal factor

So fall if u must, cry if u must, but remember to stand up

No one love you , you said? Your mum carried you for 9 months, try carrying a full pail for nine months, same feeling, ain't that love? Even if she is gone or she turn bad, remember u had love, to find love again, you must love yourself first

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MediaCorp

Well last wed i went to mediacorp, two things catch my interest, The Traffic watch and DJ Room.

Traffic watch is a good way to get intel
DJ have Awesome working room

Cat, Cindy,Rey,Towfiq ,Glenn and Me went there.

So many ppl i know also gone there, Eleen(not wrong spelling),Cheryl,Cindy( well, wat to say),Ali Baba(i dunno how to write his real name),Wanda, Huimin(i tink i know her),Wan Yee and Angel

It was a totally fun experience, especially with glenn and Towfiq.

Here is cat in her most unappealing picture>>>>>

Looks like a crazy woman, a retard and something else i can't put my hand on

Glenn Keep barking at her, HAHA

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(This statement is partially true)
This is Glenn, Crazy Ass , Looks innocent, but a killer inside, look at his eyes will make some heart beat faster(Clarica), however, other hearts will stop>>>

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This is our Guide thru mediacorp, quite a nice woman,

have a sense of humor tooo>>>>>

She told us all abt the DJ and The layman explaination of how mediacorp work

Here is all the group photo of us>>>>

Glenn and us did some AD for DJ work, quite fun, he was the alien, i was the british guy, the guide said i have nice voice...haha felt so good, but nahhh

Towfiq and his friend also did the DJ work and made alot of us laugh, they did the sports news thing and the DJ comment she could get fired by them if it is for real

Cat and us went the same way home, so she wanted to take this photo, ask me act abit siao, but i look retarded>>>>

All in all a fun day

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Class T-shirt

Well i foloed Jackie,Jolene,Rey and Eileen to meet the class T supplier, Andrew and Daniel were free so they tagged along

Rey brought his friend..mega(not kidding) a girl call mega...10^6

i was laughing abit abt it, but lets not tease her

Anyway wat was fun was went we met bryan, he was walking around. He said he treat us TCC, the coffee thing

We had LOTS of fun in there, he treat us one potato wench(wrong spelling who gives a shit) we on dutch on the other

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Andrew's Longan...looks like a baby's brain>>>>

Disgusting but i heard it was nice

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Jackie and Jolene Malt i tink, cost 7 dollars...nuts, i drank water only>>>>

See the wedges in the back???>>>>>>

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Bryan holding a potato wench, haha, he looks like Emperor palpatine when his hood is up>>>>>

looks like orannge

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Couple Jackie and Jolene drinking that way
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Couple...HAHA jk, me and bryan trying the same thing>>>>>

Group Photos>>>>>

Cheers Good Night>>>>>

A fun night,Bryan was commenting why was he in tis picture
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There was a vid but sigh...can't put it, i look retarded in it

Nice night...didn't study..Opps

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Whzzup?

Exams are here, Games are at it's end, P.E. is nuts

Newton's 3rd law should be used on someone

Trying some lying techniques

I learn alot from you, thanks

Glenn after 5 mins>>>>

Joking, i ask him to post for the shot

He is a badass

All is Well

Blog

2008-09-05T06:02:00.000-07:00

Ok havn't been posting recently...really really busy with COMPUTER GAMES XD

haha, not really lah, plenty of things happen so here is what happens in short

Random Image Me and my sis in one restaurant.

The HUGE BURGER,I was commenting where do i start with it? i tot Carls Jr was big, this was bigger XD

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Teacher's day(Morning)

One heck of a day...after 3 days without playing computer. I had my first break

Morning, Classmates, Afternoon Going out with Joelle and Etc, Then Evening with Param

The Celebration was full of Chinese songs...ridiculous, i bet they all wan personal fame instead of actually thanking the teachers.

I was quite embarrasses by how the block of clay end out. However our cards were nice XD

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(After Celebration)
Afternoon, folo Samatha to pass Watee her gifts, helped Daniel bring down the stuff XD

Said goodbye to both of them and was with Tomato and Andrea. Waited for Joelle, then went out to shop for smt.... went to woodlands, then junction 8

Acc Andrea to Clementi, Gave her, her birthday gift(which i didn't know was a ....smt forgot XD)

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(Evening)
Came back and my good pal param was waiting,

We played Halo 1 and Halo 3, Halo 3 was most fun when i wanted to do a stunt.

Well see my tag and u roughly know what it means

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All in all a good day

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Batminton Days
Friday
I played Batminton with my cousins and uncles and aunt...holy mama one of my uncles was good

Me and Kok Yong(one of my closer cousins) played against my aunts and we won. First Round we were losing 6-10(11 is game point) so i can't let them hit us for 4 consecutive times. Determination is a powerful thing. I managed to hit back and won that game, Second round was easier

We played against my dad and my young cousin(a girl), we barely won(well my dad was good but to win we just had to attack my younger cousin, desperate times call for desperate measures)

The Youngest Uncles is hellish, i tot i was quite good, he like slaughtered me, with smacks and countersmacks, i was breathless playing with him

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Monday
Bryan Booked a court in Hougang, my dad was good to give me a ride XD

So i played with Jackie, Hiro, Jolene and Rey(We avoid Bryan most of the time as he was badass in batminton)

Well from my two experience, i need to learn to smack, countersmack and perfect my direction.i could win quite easily with fast and face ball(balls sailing abv shoulder but not high). But who usually play speed ball with me?

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Then Came Tusday and Wednesday. It was nice going back to sch but we all went horny on Wed. Towfiq's"Catch no Bra"(Instead of catch no balls) kills us. We were laughing half the lesson away. Ms J commented to S4 that tis is the reason we need so many remedial

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Thursday was nice, wouldn't say much but lets say i tot i will do Ecos

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Friday.

Woke up and was late to go Rey's house with Jackie and Jolene, So sry but forgot my wallet.Rey cook good soup u know XD

Then We took a cab to Meet Eileen but i had to go off immediately....lol, i wish i wasn't late

Went to Dentist and Found out I can't take off today.....FOOOOKA. The chair was so comfortable i nearly wanted to sleep. Then talk to .....shit forgot her name, but i was telling her how nice the chair was and how i tot today is the day i will take off my braces. She nags me for forgetting the docs name, i laughed it off saying that i forgot tis time only, now i remember, Dr.Ong

Taking out my braces in Nov, that is what they say XD

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Random Picture

Fire Drill that had a rainbow in a sunny sky, nice ain't it

All is Well

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Tag Reply

Nicole:Hey Thanks XD, what is your blog ? >.<

Rey:High over What? The Muah Hook? Yeah

Jody: Yeah, He told me XD What a small world

Param, Lets Do that again, but tis time, we do it in a worst way haha. Get the Fuck On it Goddamn it!!!

Story

2008-08-23T02:55:00.000-07:00

Recently Life was one big ball of hatred, but now i feel great XD.(A Chinese Hotdog outside is 1.00, in Canteen it is 1.20 ???) NUTS

Funny how can one tiny thing change a mood entirely

Daniel ask me to bring my cam to sch for 3 days to take pictures of teacher, well, we had fun too LOL

Teachers day is coming and we going to have a heck of a time

Dr.Daniel and Glenn, See the SC badge on Daniel?>>>

Glenn Joke of the Week: Jolene can i drink your milk?
If CO2 Molecules so big, why can't
we see it

Bryan and Glenn, Recently i am always playing PSP with Bryan

Samantha, which sprain her ankle recently(And we "skipped" class thanks to that)

Story, P.E. We were skipping, then after P.E. We were skipping (class)

You are Heavy Samantha XD

Eileen found Phys to be boring and decide to do some decoration to Sam's bottle

Thanks Eileen, Now i know how to make a Rose

Jackie Lim in Ecos Class with a bemused smile

Original is Better than Crispy Jackie XD

Funny

2008-08-15T05:47:00.001-07:00

I always trying to understand myself

Then i found out i am in a vicious cycle

Found A Most Important Thing in my life

Scared to Lose it(This is the important part as fear destroys everything)

Lost it

Then go back to stage one

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I wish Somehow the most important things in my life are not able to be lost

If i find something important, an idea, a hobby, a dream, something that can't be lost

I will be strong

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Anyway, Nth Much Recently, life is boring again, which is good.

I had my Wushu Shirt... looks like batminton shirt

I go Wushu not for wushu but for batminton LOL

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Random Things i remember

" Our Class Runs a Top Intelligence Agency"

" Our Class Is the Only Active Senate in the School"

"Choose what you want to believe"

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Cindy Was Siao, wanna do a skit for teachers day. Sian, i wish no need to do, but seems it is done, just get it over with...sigh

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Hmm i can't handle, stress, i will mess up, I can't handle fear, i will screw up. Feel so weak like this, GODDAMN IT

How to Find Strength ?

LKY

2008-08-11T08:11:00.000-07:00

Ok i gotta the pictures from jackie

Me and Glenn and Cat are the ones doing the stuff(cat was last min add on one)

Jackie was helping me spike my hair... it was HORRIBLE

HORRIBLE HORRIBLE

Our Cart has 2 big balls and a stick in the centre... anything familiar to u all ?

Our stuff were planned like in an hour? well it was slip-short work

I was wondering whether i will disgrace myself for a sucky performance. Lucky i listen to announcments on tuesday(half the classes did not) then (half of the half didn't go for the second briefing, then half of the half turned up)

Not only that, one had stage fright, so out of the three who turned out, only 2 groups perform.... will, no matter what still get prize...better if all never turned up...all for us... LOL

Thanks Jackie, Khairul, Daniel Cat, Jolene for helping out although Jolene and Khairul are the ones authorized LOL
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O yea it was wanda's and daniel's birthday... i ran down to wanda birthday... so sry.. .can't attend long.. T_T.

The after sch one i had to miss cuz Ms J wan to see us, then I decided not to go down as she was treating HAHA

Then we watch movie.....zzzzz if we did not eat first...should hav listened to Eileen. Ms J wasted watching it twice, Cindy and Eileen never watch -_-... if not we all will be watching love guru

Mummies was nice...bad plot but NICE effects.... haha... MS J was making so much comment, it was irriating to me as i can't hear it, but glenn was laughing his ass off...must be good

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Well, on a darker note. I still realize i need to learn alot of thing. If ONLY I COULD KILL FEAR. Fear of Losing, Fear of Aliening.... I hate it...is there somewhere to destroy fear? Without destroying hope as well?

If people care too much.... i alienate them.... if they dun care... we alienate each other.

God... i need to find strength... where to start ?
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But still all is well XD

Home

2008-08-09T23:44:00.001-07:00

Nth much happening recently, well that is good and that is bad...cuz nth to post here LOL.

I will get pictures from Jackie abt the mascot competition(which we win cuz only 2 teams showed up)

Anyway, i was trying out a new skin and i have to say this is better... i can post whatever picture i wan on top XD.

Happy B'day Singapore, Wanda and Daniel.

That is All

All is Well

Knights

2008-08-02T08:20:00.000-07:00

Batminton
Dark Knight
Black Knight
Firework

That is a summary of yesterday and today.

Yesterday i played batminton for 2 hrs with my cousin and uncles and aunts, i was so tired, my racket flew once. Sweat drench my entire sleeveless shirt.

here is a few photo

Me with my drench shirt

My uncles who are shameless and cool, dare to do stupid stuff in public, haha, they always crack me up

They wear soccer outfit for batminton

-_-

My sis and me

My uncle ask me to act cool

My favourite cousin(on the father side)

He gave me a pokemon game on handphone, lol it is suppose to be a stupid game, but if you only have the handphone, it is a good game

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Today i felt so tired i didn't wan to go wushu.(for more than that reason of course)

Anyway i went out with Brian, Param and Mars(a girl i known for 4 years but didn't know for 4 years LOL)

My
friend brian new look >>>>>

It was fun, the cinema was on repairs so we can't buy dogs or nachos(shitty)
So no good food

The show was Good INTENSIVE PLOT that i had abit of trouble following, That Dark Knight was good

Anyway, we all look like pirated video men going in cuz of tri-pod and heavy bags(SLR can't video) so param and brian had to go out to keep the stuff

After lunch at the local kopitiam(where they accused me of going to talk long on the phone when mars talk longer)

We headed to Esplanade where we found a good place to set up and wait for the planes and stuff.

The Black Knights were good(after all they clocked more than 1000 hr flight time)

After burner and stunts were awesome
The fireworks were below standard cuz of the balloon blocking

However they were quite good

Then after everything we had to find a atm to refuel our wallets...we walked all the way to raffles then found out there is a atm at the place we wanted to eat at (old market, which ironical is quite new),

After a nice supper, we all went home while we played psp(there were two but we let everyone play), lucky the battery ended near lakeside

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You know there are something i wish can say here, but can't say cuz of stuff, maybe i post somewhere else

All is well

Long Time

2008-07-31T05:55:00.001-07:00

FURIOUS ANGELS

well i ,tink it is a long time since i blog, but today alot of things to blog.
Here is what i going to say as a content page

-What going on recently and a summary of what i going to say
-Ms Gong B'day
-Wan Yee B'day
-Wushu
-Singapore
-Inner Troubled Thoughts

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I have been so busy recently that i barely had enough sleep, in fact i was dying this few days

We have been planning for Ms Gong B'day

Lets just say i am never allowing my pals to make handmade cards again, not that it is ugly, but it takes sooo much time

At the same time i had to plan for Wan Yee B'day, lucky they wanted a small cake, however, it was a rush in the morning and i was running on pure adrenaline today.

I want to talk about wushu too

Then i wan to touch on singapore

then i wan to touch on my inner trouble thoughts
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Ms Gong B'day

it was a SUCCESSS... haha that i am glad, it was troubling, especially on the last night where everyone nerves were fried, i even gotten angry.

We had huge argument and i was going to shout a few times only a last min restraint that said" we all in trouble together" saved my ass. Then Jackie attitude of positive and my attitude of "feeling alive in pain", allows me to stay focus.

Photo for Ms Gong>>>>

We ordered Mee Goreng for 20 people, it was well receive and cleared(Chelsea had a thing about food)

Drinks were nearly cleared and that is good

Class was clean beyond expectation

We have Jolene, Cindy,Jackie(maid), Daniel(Logic), Rey, Eileen, and Me doing the job

Thank You Jolene for being picky so we can do well
Thank You Cindy for your tolerance for teammates
Thank You Jackie for your candle in darkness
Thank You Daniel for Mental Support and Help in IRP
Thank You Rey for Your invaluble ideas
Thank You Eileen for your artistic skills
Thank.... i dunno what to say abt me lah

Others:

Thank the class for being cooperative and those who stayed back to clean up.
Thank You Mr Andrew for Being Nice to Us

Next Thing is teachers day... cards for 10 teachers?

No Freaking way, i think i will buy LOL

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Wan Yee B'day was the same day as Ms Gong Bye Bye Party.

Our plan was to make her embarrass in front of everyone, so we wanted to sing the song in the morning assembly

However, i couldn't work the lighter Jolene gave me. So it took awhile to light the thing, and it was blown off as soon as we reached Wan Yee

they are photo shy so i won't say much

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on a more sad note, let me talk about wushu.

From a outside and social view, it is perfect, great people there, well planned, i love my buddies there, i do not care for the tiring training, in fact i would be happy to be tired(not at that moment but once i reach home)

However there is something terribly wrong.

I admit i am lousier than most but that is not what is wrong, i can be the shittest but i do not care as long as i am trained.

And the fact is i am not trained and i think my coach is only distancely aware of my existence.

Evidence:
I was one of the earliest to join and yet i was one of the last, strike that, i was the LAST to get a weapon, and ONLY,ONLY becuz i requested it.

I tot maybe i could be patience or the coach was testing it , so i was patience, i didn't ask her for anything much, i had to ask to get a weapon.

I remembered she was giving commands to the team to practice
(translated to english)
"
****, Go learn your **** weapon
Roger....erm go do what you do.........."

Is that freaking insulting?, i mean like what the fuck?

I ask for so little, a little coaching, a little attention, maybe just 10 mins spend with me i will be so happy trying to learn 5 moves which i will get 2 out of 5, but nope, latest training, she never even given me any personal training. Which other people had like 20 mins to her or smt? I know i am not that good, but do u need to shove it in my face? I would be so fucking happy to get a scolding

My patience is wearing thin, teachers recommand to all students that they keep going on for at least a year.
I will finish the year, and by then i will quit. I will find other ways to train my fitness.

I harbour no hatred for her, she is doing her job. However i wan to achieve something. It is so sad that i found a perfectly good CCA to have it trashed by ignoring me.

I feel saddness to quit, but then again

it needs to be done
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Singapore

They Recently Gave Us a S-Cube thing... some book on Success Survival and Serving( i tink)

Are they NUTS?

After countless hearing what my GP expert says and what i learn. Do the Singapore Government treat us like fools?

We are A-Level Students, Close to being a full adult. Are they nuts to think they could brainwash us with that crap.

Well the stories are true, the examples are true. The stories we all know are fictional. However, what the chance that that we all do that? Where are all the stories about us going bad? About our racism?

One thing i really hate in singapore is the lack of press freedom, that everything is censored so much, it is like a bloody cage. Can't they trust us not to turn our backs on our country?

I will do my duty as a citizen,national service and everything. I am thankful for the secure environment, however there are just some thoughts.... I think i will go read Singabloodypore
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Messy Inner thoughts

Well, i never made the same mistakes as Secondary school

However, i have one mistake...one terrible mistake...........O god how am i suppose to fix that

Determination can't help me, only if i could relax

Another thought is , god it is maddening in my head. I know so many people, but do i know them?

Who the heck am i? i am not better in anything compared to majority, i am like a jack of all spades(most at least), then what is my role if there is one that can be better, who the hell am i ?

i hate being so weak, hate it so much

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Maybe the lack of sleep is the issue i am so negative
I will see about tml

All is Well

Light

2008-07-24T05:50:00.000-07:00

Today was ok lah

it has been a long day

I tink first time i greet teacher morning, then afternoon, then evening,then night... LOL

At the last lesson, even the teacher is tired, she made alot of mistakes

we had endless lessons and only 2 breaks, which was a killer

Here is Jackie standing up trying desperately not to sleep

Ms Gong is leaving T_T, we must celebrate with her.

All the best for her
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Sry my friend, for you were not the one who publish the thing on the blog, i had harbour anger at you for nth. lucky i didn't do anything cuz u looked pitiful today

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On another thing, I am so in love with V for Vendetta, awesome film. The protagonist in the film is awesome, i love him man

He speaks very very deep english, and his words mirror his actions, a person who fought against superior numbers and a government for the righteous. A role model.
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Well, now i feel like a coward, i had to apologized to someone, i wanted to but i wanted to use tact and slide it in the conversation or smt, however we seldom talk. Well, when my friend asked abt it, i felt guilty even though i know i had reasonable reason to wait. However, i just had this feeling that i am a coward, so hell, i am going to tell her on monday, a apology rite? nth much. Straight in the face, hell with tact, do it the way i should have done instead of making it so draggy
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My another friend is in a mess, well, godspeed, hope they can solve, some people just need to get out of self-pity state and not tink of what could have been done, think of what i can do now. I can't believe a sentence broke his morale.

The problem of sucking your problem in and trying to fix it, is that u get look down by people,although it might get fix
The problem of self-pity is that people will sympathize with you, however job doesn't get down, so social standing goes up

Where was the guy i admire for his forward-looking?
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Let me Write out what i have to do

Ms Gong Farewell party
Class-T
Hw
Self-study group
Birthday parties(class and 'people')
Tan ka kee project
The mascot for the class
Pour cold water on friend
Apologize head first

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All my life i have been looking for someone who will forever be there for me, and i will be for her, no matter what i did or what she do, however in realism, there is no such thing as forever and leaving all my hopes on a person is childish, i will find a partner, i will freaking hell love her, if i can , i will go in glory and die for her. However, till then my main purpose shall be no more abt find a gf. I will find one purpose, one cause, one ideal, where i can place my entire will on it.

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All is well, i must be tired to be speaking nonsense

Today

2008-07-22T05:39:00.000-07:00

I tink my GP screwed up

Anyway, quite a good day, in all regard, there is problems but nth i can't solve XD, if only i have a time machine which makes me move 1.5x my speed in all aspect, so i have 36 hrs instead of 24hr.

Yesterday, i was studying with my classmates till 7pm, close to 9pm, i was still outside, i was like OMG.

Then A messenge appears, calling me buuny... which became my nickname.....soooo irriating, werebuuny is better...BETTER NOT CALL ME THAT XD

and deja vu, look at this pic

same as the picture a few days before, but this time it is night... LOL

Today, after sch, my friend left first, so i went out with my classmates again, we went MAC for a change, before we reach there, we saw JACKIE( A cat name jackie)
So jackie was chasing jackie, i was like LOL

Here is the cat>>>>

My friend had to comment we went back 5 years in time(due to our behaviour)

Glenn isn't here, i will sorely miss him for now XD

All is Well

2008-07-19T06:12:00.000-07:00

Today was fine, wushu in morning.

I FINALLY HAVE A WEAPON XD( A Northern Staff), I was like So happy, but only learn 3 steps of the beginning, well, i have patience.

Then after sch, i intended to go to west mall with cindy and xiang lin, however xiang lin was sick, so i remain with him in sch and played PSP together, single combat we were equal, tag battle my psp was spoiled so can't say who is the real winner

However the sch closed at 12.00pm.....at 1.30 i was still playing. I and him were like SHOCKED... Both gates were locked. There was no way out.

So the reason i join wushu came out, i and him managed to climb over the main gate. The height was high, however, after a tiring day at wushu, our legs were like numb or used, so we felt no pain.

After that i watch Hancock with Param and Terence(he insisted and it was the closest timing). it was ok lah.
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Now i found out my problem.

Main Serious Problem, Fear

Fear of heights and feet not on the ground, i hate tis, makes me hestiate.

Fear of saying out how i feel, i have partially cure this, but to those i feel closer to, the words get harder to come out.
( That is why i have a blog, but now, i tink i should say feelings in face or phone)

Although i cure my Fear of Stage, there is a frantic inside feeling, i must cure that...

Fear of talking to people who suddenly say hi and ask a few question(who know my name and i dunno theirs)

All i need is conviction for them to be true, I need to believe
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All is well

Today

2008-07-17T03:22:00.000-07:00

Same as ever, still sad but well life goes on, i can be sad but lets just say that it is damn hard to make me emo and no matter how sad i am, i must enjoy life to the fullest

sad is not equal emo XD.

Here is a song i humming the whole day
First Time-Lifehouse
i always humming the first part

We're both looking for something
We've been afraid to find
It's easier to be broken
It's easier to hide

Looking at you,holding my breath,
For once in my life,I'm scared to death,
I'm taking a chance,letting you inside.

Feeling alive all over again,
As deep as the sky, under my skin
Like being in love, she says
For the first time
Maybe I'm wrong,
But I'm feeling right where I belong
With you tonight
Like being in love
To feel for the first time

Anyway for once i tink i post smt happy

I have been training for wushu for 3 freaking days. Monday and Tuesday were usual 5-6.30 train the Student council and NE members.

Wed was more......interesting. training starts at 2 and end at 5pm, but nope that is not the exciting thing. In P.E. i have to train 6 classes for silat and wushu, around 120 STUDENTS. Mint, Cindy,Cat,Ji Ren and me are the members in wushu who were in those classes. knowing that being the leader gives you experience i need for future stuff, and knowing my friend's are not social-suicide, i did my job. However i was pretty slow in training, i was also exhausted from training for 2 days. Lucky Mr chua and mint did most of the remaining jobs for me.

Afternoon was more fun, i wasn't tired anymore(my body are either numb or dead), and i begin training people, soon i realize i was the only one still training people. Eleen and some girl i forgot name( i tink lidya or smt) was the people i trained. Eleen was a slow learner, but her background as a runner, i trust she could do it well. She didn't fail me

God...it was scary in front of crowds and leading....I could become ICE, but once i made a mistake, i become more frantic... must change that
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Pepsi and Vibrator

Okkkk... this part abit sick, but worth posting

After sch today, i went out with Glenn,Jackie,Jolene,Eileen,Daniel,Andrew and Cat to Eat KFC. On the way we were laughing at Cat book, which was pretty ....sexual...it was abt yakuza daughter.(Glenn dunno wat is a vibrator) We laughed and laughed, but i decided not to go too deep into those kinda laughter, i suppress and shut up abt it.

We all ordered the value meal, since everyone same,
it was worth taking a shot( Me and Jolene taking pictures)

Then we have chat about...forgot liao, ghost and stuff. Then later after we go out, we start to become dirty again, Glenn made a senseless but full of sense remark,i forgot what was it but, i remember the meaning, handphones are vibrators. Then we laughed like madddddddddd. it was nuts, the possbilities.

"I will give you a ring on your ******"
"what is your """"""" number"

Haha LOL, Then we went past Prince Elizabeth Primary School, PEPS
we said Pepsi, and alot of jokes started... Andrew said one abt choosing your pepsi and Glenn was saying abt Pepsi here so expensive. Daniel and Eileen tot dirty abit and said paedophile, i wasn't tinking of nuts, i mean " I wan to open their can ?"is dirty Either way, my legs nearly gave way.

Then after that is home sweet home as we are bid goodbyes reluctantly.

All is Quite Well

Nearly Perfect day

2008-07-14T05:33:00.000-07:00

Well, Today was good, just the impeding doom of GP project that freaks me out....sigh alot of work to do

Have to collect money for ppl b'day
Khairl leaving tml so i wondering how the heck am i suppose to make a farewell party

Well my total grades are in....wanna take a look?
The grades type are "U,S,E,D,C,B,A"

GP:S
MT:E
PHY:C
CHEM:E
MATHS:U
ECO:U

quite well, cuz i half asleep thru out the sch anyway

You know....life is strange

My smiles are not fake, but i felt that the brightness has dim.

You know... i wished for a different life after secondary sch... i got it. But now i found out that it is true that being among a few million people, you can still feel alone.

I found myself a place where i can drawn strength from,something more than temporary less than permanent

It keeps me going,it is painful but it keeps me smiling, i wonder when i will draw finish, but till that day, i will remind strong.

God, i love my classmates, i love my family, i love teachers and peers, they keep me company, gives me freedom from my pain.

Funny how when u are in pain, then u can enjoy life to a better extent

All is Mostly Well

Life as it is

2008-07-11T09:44:00.000-07:00

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Well, life as it is ok lah.

Happy BIRTHDAY JOELLE(Actually Yesterday but anyway)
Too bad i put the cake in the wrong place -_-

Well i am more irritable lately but it is expected.

Today is as good as it gets, i mean i had a better than normal school day. I mean it will be excellent from the outside but there is always bugging me, everything minus -20 points or smt.

highlight in physics lesson. Eileen was proving Elastic Coillision with Towfiq's head(he bangs the table and fly's back up, elastic rite ??)

Then i spend the afternoon with Cindy and nearly a 1/3 of the class in the library doing work and reading and consulting. It was fun but quiet.

Random pictures of lecherious Jackie>>>>>>>>>>>>

Then wushu and silat had to train together....i didn't wan to go...scared to lose face...so i bought time by eating a chickent pie and potato, i dreaded going. Foots went heavy. Then i after teaching for a while...hell it ain't so bad...learning new stuff and teaching new stuff, i hav long decided i didn't want to play a big role in wushu...just help out. The goddamn coach doesn't give a shit abt me, i have nearly perfected the arts i have...only the speed and the flexiblility i can't do a shit. No weapon when even those later than me have weapons. If this continue, i am quitting.

I had loads of fun teaching them, sherman was there and he was silat so it made it easier. they teach us their moves and it was damn fun, for once i had a sense of achievement i loss a long time ago with wushu

Then i came home, start reading the host... i was nearly done, then i have to go out for badminton with my cousins and uncles and aunts... it was nuts... i mean there isn't any tension between them.

Random picture from library someday ago>>>>

They congrats their opponents, their own self, sarcasm was everywhere, but ppl were laughing and talking like china ppl, my shorts torn at 9.30, i didn't care and played till 10pm(my pants were really torned up then)

i visit my cousin house nearby and hear my uncles crack jobs while drinking beer, a total merry occasion.
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Well, there is this demon

In my soul, i expected it's arrival, in fact i embrace the fact i am tortured

Well, Love isn't devoid of pain rite

For once in my life, i know i ain't gone the wrong way, i can finally put some faith into smt.

It gives me strength to go on

On a day where i help my friends, listen to ppl, listen to problems, aid in IT, do wushu, have fun, read a book, i can't feel it. The ache is ignorable

When i am alone

When i start tinking, it lance across the heart, lance with pain.When i see her, i do a flip in the stomach at my loss.

But it was meant to be, i asked for it, i am sorry but not sorry, in a way.

Well can't tell u bloggys, cuz tis is private business Shooooo
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All is Quite Well

Life

2008-07-09T07:48:00.000-07:00

Sry long time never post... too busy.....playing and stuff XP

Anyway Exams Results are here and first time in my life i praying for a pass instead of a A

Well last wed went out with Jackie to play Pool and LAN, quite fun. play the day away...lost alot of money T_T

I was killing jacky by shooting balls at him...sounds wrong>>>

last thurs i went to hougang to meet a couple of classmates to discuss T-shirt design with a 29 year old guy. He is cool for an old man(nah...jk only). It was hell getting there. there after a little 2 hours.i had to return as all of them left -_-. i shopped around to find Joelle gift to waste time so as to make the fare worth, found smt nice but never buy.

At Friday i went out to my dad shop, where i slack...a woman tried to hit on my dad and his friend... i trust my dad not to fall under such weak flirt. The other was younger and was nicer... i like her better...but i wonder in her eyes am i a kid or adult?

At sat i went out with Param as he wanted to buy smt from Sim Lim. He never bought it... instead bought a infared len at the 6 floor shop....told him that at the 5-6 floor are the treasure area.

At sun, he was telling me abt telling ppl abt infared lens, had lunch and he had to buy smt from popular, then we went home and i spend time with my dad and sis.

At monday, i went out with a friend to watch Hancock..awesome bastard.Although i wanted to watch mummies but my friend was scared...after seeing the ad...she wasn't.. i was like i told u so...

I dunno when i took this but my dad was acting cool, laughing my head off >>>

At tue..back to sch..happpy...good day

At wed, well not a very good day. But it was meant to be. After all life was always like that, but more challenging this time. I won't let history repeat itself, that is what fools do.

Well all is not really well but lets make a last great show.

Love can ignite the stars

2008-07-02T08:15:00.000-07:00

Black and White
Darkness and Light
Matter and Anti-Matter
Cure and Disease
Poison and Antidote
Dreams and Reality
Male and Female
Demons and Angels
Fear and Courage
Freedom and Slavery.

One cannot exist without the other...............

haha just listing the opposites in this world

Anyway. Today went out for Pool and Lan gaming, nth much but a good way to spend the day...rather than cooped up at home.

Played with Eileen again...Lost 3-0...but every battle was close

Here is a very nice saying from Star Wars: Revenge of The Sith By Matthew Stover
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The Dark Is Generous.
It's First Gift is Concealment: Our true faces lie in the dark beneath our skins, our true hearts remain shadowed deeper still.But the greatest concealment lies not in protecting our secret truths, but in hiding from us the truths of others.
The Dark Protects Us From What We Dare Not Know.
Its second gift is comforting illusion:the ease of gentle dreams in night's embrace, the beauty that imagination brings to what would repel in day's harsh light. But the greatest of its comforts is the illusion that the dark is temporary:that every night brings a new day. Because it is the day that is temporary.
Day Is The Illusion.
Its third gift is the light itself:as days are defined by the nights that divide them, as stars are defined by the infinite black through which they wheel, the dark embraces the light, and brings it forth from the centre f its own self.
With Each Victory Of The Light, It Is The Dark That Wins

The Dark Is Generous ,And It Is Patient.
It is the dark that seeds cruelty into justice, that drips contempt into compassion,that poisons love with grains of doubt.
The dark can be patient, because the slightest drop of rain will cause those seeds to sprout.
The rain will come, and the seeds will sprout,for the dark is the soil in which they grow, and it is the clouds above them, and it waits behind the star that gives them light.
The Dark Patience is Infinite.
Eventually, Even Stars Burn Out.

The Dark is Generous, And It is Patient, And It Always Wins.
It Always Wins Because It Is Everywhere.
It is in the wood that burns in your hearth, and in the kettle on the fire; it is under your chair and under your table and under the sheets on your bed. Walk in the mid-day sun and the dark is with you, attached to the soles of your feet.
The Brightest Light Cast The Darkest Shadow.

The Dark is Generous, And It is Patient, And It Always Wins.
But in the heart of it's strength lies weakness: one lone candle is enough to hold it back.
Love Is More Than A Candle.
Love Can Ignite The Stars.

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Nice ain't it, well i am not a man of love cuz never felt it much, but nice poem kinda thing.... dun u tink?

All is Well

2008-07-01T06:59:00.000-07:00

Well tis few days are quite relaxing, i am more connected to reality than ever and then i am more connected to the com than ever.

Study Group, Pool, Going to source for T-shirt, projects,buying birthday gifts... all having ppl around... fun.

Anyway.. i was studying for physic yesterday with my study group. Then after a close friend's call. We went KFC then i have to eat 2 dinner....god...... I saw Mandy and Jasmine along the way... Mandy is looking for a job... i am against it and rather her study but then again, it is her life.

Anyway today Exam was Good... i was again brimming with confidence. So happy that i can at least do well for that i was high. Then we watch WANTED.

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At first i wasn't high abt the show...looks like some crappy movie with alot of killing and the guy getting the girl in the end kinda thing.

Then after doing logical physic the whole morning. The movie was like the opposite. BULLETS travel in a circle... Car doing stuns that are damn near impossible. Bullets hitting each other like a duel.(Technically possible but the probability is nearly impossible). We were laughing our heads off in the cinema. It was ridiculous that a organization started off with 10 men with nth to do but find codes in cloth. Wax acting like white blood cells, shooting thru a donut at 10 km away.

Plot was ridiculous
CG was crazy
Protagonist was a guy without life, lousy job, 14 bucks in his bank, girlfriend screwing with his best friend finding a way to be in control of life by killing wantonly.
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Insane but i love it, i wanna watch V for Vendetta . Padme actress star in it XD. Wanted was good. Angeline Jolie stars in Wanted, so did Morgan Freeman(the guy who plays god) and i wan to look like this guy :Thomas Kretschmann. He has the look like he been out there. God when i am out of study i am exploring the world.

Usually i won't remember the names but, remembering some is important as some like Angeline Jolie is a UN Ambassdor for UN refugee agency and won't make me like an idiot when i talk to ppl.

Alright i go kick some Eileen ass in some Minesweeper flag, bye

All is Well

Bored

2008-06-29T08:11:00.000-07:00

Haha, nth really interesting recently.

Have been doing smt i never been doing in my life... i chat more on the phone then on msn. Well it is kinda nice cuz u can feel the person's emotion and yours

Hardly went to the net...sry my blogger friends

Anyway...wat is really funny is that my families love and hate my temporary staying grandma. She gives us joy as she do some extremely funny action and hearing my mum complain abt her is also funny.

Gotten a new shirt....can't believe the prices.... 100+ for a shirt? what izzit made of? Gold? Caesium ?
Then i need a new watch.... i wanted a G-Force...BUT LOOK AT THE PRICE.... 100+ for a freaking watch too? OMG
i bought a 45 dollar watch...quite good, in fact it was my old-old watch just different colour(old-old means my last second watch).
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Chat with Andrea like daily... she tolded me i was so cute she could adopt me...i was flattered... but adopt sound like i am a baby or a dog..i am neither childish nor a underling to her XP. But u should hear her mum...sounds like a 16 year old lady..especially after parroting me.i was like shock and tot it was Andrea friend. She told me not to tell alot abt her so i won't say much. If i could i will write a small novel

Andrea called me in the end of my dinner with my family members and cousin... now i love my cousin and family...but everytime i get a call... they assume it is a girlfriend and tease me to no end.....i was like speechless for a while....in fact i felt jumpy when i knew the call was her, tried to lower my volume...but my family has a tradition of eavesdropping...god. i tink i enjoy calling and been called more then msn talk or sms liao. It beats listening to mp3 or gaming...doesn't beat chatting with real life ppl though.
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Anyway. i was bored tonight and talked to a couple of ppl. Eileen from 08S5 was chatting with me. She gave me a nick
I told her my name is Erh Kang Jin Roger=EKJR... she twist it to JKER then she add a O...guess where? JOKER
She was named Eileen Leen, i was hungry, so i told her Eileen Leen Lean Meat, she was the butcher, i am the meat...so wrong.....
Haha i was practically high playing minesweeper flag with her.

at first i won 2 rounds... i was wondering what is with her today... she is like weak.

Then she had a jumped in ability... HAHA... awesome jumped in ability...she was then like crazy bitch or smt....won and slaughtered me in 2 rounds...one of the score was like 6 is to 26.

Then i had a close fight with her and won again.. >>>> 22 to 26. She was winning then she made a HUGE mistake. i was like DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE... and she was writing senseless on the board...MADDNESS... HAHA

Then i kena slaughter again. no comment

After that we were on the FINAL ROUND. IT WAS SOOO CLOSE....24 is to 26... I lost DAMN IT..... haha it was damn fun.

All is Well... bored... Phone Ring plz............

School

2008-06-25T19:13:00.000-07:00

Summer has gone and past, the innocent can never last- Wake Me Up When September Ends-Greendays

Well, it is the end of the holidays and back in school. Now is exams so i won't type that much

Life is as good as it gets now, hope it stays this way.

Well,Alot of b'day this 2 months i need to plan... classmates...school mates...good friends....crap, that reminds me to buy....nvm dun wanna say

haha...i am still sick.. doc was surprise that i was sick for nearly a month in the prime years of a human life....well....i went chalet...go and eat fried stuff and etc...how to heal...

All is Well

Exams

2008-06-23T06:04:00.000-07:00

Exams are here and i tink i ain't prepared...the only time i tot i was prepared was O level...... well anyway.....When i was sec 2-4 everytime before exam, i will say this to a few of my frineds

The Line i will say starts at 1 min 17secs

Cuz i always prepare for the worst case scenario, since it always happens anyway.....sooo i always use this line

All Right(pause) This is it!
You all know me so i will say this as simple as i can
If it is our time to die, it is our time
All i ask is(Pause)
IF we have to give this bastards our lives
WE GIVE THEM HELL BEFORE WE DO !

haha, i know it is not talking abt exam, but this is how i see exams, as if exams are alive....hehehe

So lets go to exams...and bring the house down

KK hospital

2008-06-20T08:22:00.000-07:00

Hello, it has been an interesting day for me.

Well i tot i was going KK hospital to do some volunteer work with the kids, in the end, i did work with the kids, but not at KK hospital.

They say we will bring them shopping, in the end, it was a celebration at a CC, organized by 2 companies.

I met up with Wan Yee and Joelle and her mum, i was with my sis as she wanted to tag along.

This is My sister in the uniform >>>
Haha she loved the job, very actively helping, Joelle Mum ask her to come again. Well, i can say my sis love kids

Well, she also been staring at guy's ass and told me she found a guy cute... welll...you understand why she like kids so much

This is Joelle, HAHA finally she say can put a picture of her

lazy girl, always sit down -_-, 3rd day she know me, tease me to death. lucky now i can tease her, XD

She tell me dun need to cut weight liao, fail NAFRA then fail, i was like no way XP. Well, she organize us to come and then she did help us so, credit when it is due XD

Always giving me the "You dumbass" look

hehe

See so childish >>>>>
(going to kena on tues)

The weather was so nice in the morning, raining, almost wanted to sleep on, but nahhh.

Well, they had a uniform for the volunteers, Dark Pink shirt... i was like, wow, first time wear this colour, ain't that bad.

The Millionaire monk then brought us to the CC, we did some fairly useful stuff like tying balloons, making balloons full of water.

Then the OIC asked" Who wanna wear costume?"

Me trying to show a fighting stance in the suit>>>
Turn out looking like an idiot

Not thinking of the consequences, i took it.

There were 3 costumes, the Girls From RJC which were locals there(well we are from the same country, but i live on the other side) took the monkey and mouse, i took the cow.

it was fun, but it was HOT, HOT HOT, horrible costume, like inferno like that... didn't realize that.

Me and Wanyee and Joelle >>>>>

Wanyee, Joelle and My sister tot my costume was funny, i tot i look ridiculous. I mean, a cow suit ??? but the photo ended up quite nice so i dun mind

They took some pictures, i played with the kids and took picture with them, all while sweating in my costume.

But i can say it was fun, many of the kids were lively monkeys, unable to stop, especially a girl/guy(i dunno, shutup, we had a dispute over this).

Me and the energizer bunny>>>>
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Then i saw why some of them were like permanent residents of the hospital. i won't go into details, but most of them, need tubes to survive. Looking at that, and looking at my problems, my seem so distance. Some barely could walk, some...i dun like to say. I was quite shock a few time at the extent of their problems... one of them was ten, and she ain't larger than a 3 year old baby.

I have to respect the parents, they must have gone thru alot, but their willpower to carry on their child's life is worthy of our admiration. Those kids who are conscience of their problems, well, they should be given a medal to be living in a life of that and still smile. I mean, i dun believe i can do that, i would kill myself. i won't stand of life of only taking and not giving
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Then after i took a break and took out the costume, it was HEAVEN, PURELY THAT.

i spoke to the RJC girls, talked to Joelle and Wanyee, my sis, the monk guy, the OIC and a friendly photographer who is the kind of guy you take the first look, you like him XD.

Then i started looking for the girl i was staring thru those cow eyes, haha, she is a eyecandy, too bad can't find her

Then i put on the costume and continue my work for the costume contest of the kids. It was hot... sweating cuz i made adjustment to my uniform. Then the girl/guy kid came out, she/he was wearing a army costume, and boy was she hyperactive.... like a energizer bunny. XD

There was a kid that freak out seeing me thankfully most of them played with me and the RJC girls, they were good actors, acting like they were real rats and monkeys. i squeeze the rats nose and started laughing for no damn reason... haha.

>>>> if u notice i am holding my head, it keeps falling off... sounds wrong>>> XD

After that, the OIC told me to put down the costume in what i call" body bags" i had a chat with the RJC girls, a magician then i went off and relax under the air-con.

I saw fellow volunteers serving lunch(cater type). i join in the fun. It was amazing that some ppl dun eat chocolate -_-.

I joked with some of the ppl, bullied some others and said a sad hello to some of the kids cuz they dunno who am i T_T. i felt like superman in home clothes.XD

After a amount of "testing" by fellow volunteers, we broke all our self-control and started eating. The food was above average, better than MI food of course LOL.

After that we started packing the stuff as the guest left the area. Then we started playing with the kids and taking photography. I took a picture of me and that little girl/guy who has a nuclear reactor inside( My hair all mess up thanks to the costume)

Look at her soooo cute sia >>>> so full of life too, haha, that is how kids should be

This is Me and the rest of the costume team, they were RJC year 1 girls.

One of them is cute, the other is playful. She shoved me on stage. I was like going to fall cuz the damn costume is not balanced. My sis was like WOW RJC, and scared to go near them, After hearing Andrea stories of ppl After Aceing A Level went on to Ace SAT.....i didn't think much of intelligence now XP

My hair was like wet and after bath look >>>>>>
If u notice we all are holding our tail XD

Then after packing the stuff, we entertained the kids that are stick active. A guy in robin hood suit and the guy/girl in army suit, They were like shooting me and my sister and trying to slash us with a toy sword.

PAIN PAIN PAIN>>>

It was so cute till the toy sword(which was a balloon) became a plastic, more painful dagger, the guy/girl started using her gun as a club. It started to hurt then, after playing for a while, we tried not to get wack

Then after the tiring morning, we took the van back(with bloody load of balloon inside) and drove to the MRT. Heck of a Day

All is Well

Helloz

2008-06-18T19:46:00.000-07:00

Hi, guys, i know i havn't post in a while, was quite busy. XD

I went out to study with glenn, daniel, eileen, jolene and jackie. In the end only Jackie, Jolene,Eileen and Me there. Eileen was pissed at me cuz i made her wait 1 hr and spend 1 dollar on calling me back

This is Bryan's Present, Cute ain't it, i love it, i wanted to hug the goddamn thing to sleep

Jackie and Jolene Couples with it >>>>>

i went to Bryan's Chalet. It was Awesome.There was a few people i didn't know, a few i barely know,a few i quite know, but hey we had fun. CK(A guy i just know that day) bought candles that can't be blowed out. Bryan took ages to blow, even using a paper plate to blow it. We were laughing half to dead sadistically as he became out of breathe. I have a video of it XD.

After that, We headed to the room to get some air-con.playing 21 and tai-ti(i tink). Laughing at CY jokes. Then Bryan parents arrive and we have to eat cake AGAIN, Lucky it is strawberry and the first cake is choc, both Ice-cream cake XD. Then CY started to talk abt Solid, Liquid, Gas...stuff you do in the toliet...i do not wish to talk abt it XD.

After our stomachs are filled, we took out the highlight of the night. "Man in White" A local Film. It was CRAZY. It was so funny i almost had tears. DAMN THE COUGH, i couldn't laugh for more than 10 sec T_T.

After that we played true or dare till nearly 3.30, then after a few rounds of tai-ti, we all hit the sacks. I told Eileen and the rest we go eat breadfast at 5.45am. Guess what, we woke up at 7+ and even then, not all of us awake.

That is Monday/Tuesday Event
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After that i head home and took a bath and changed. Then i went to Yuhua Secondary to help out in Maths Camp. Funny how they took ages just to learn how to find surface area of cone(lets hope no sec 2 and 3 read this). However, some of them were smart and did it first.

Then came lunch, which i was serving them. I was serving them fishballs(fried) and param gave me a good idea. I keep saying"get your balls". A bit wrong, but it was kinda fun, joking with the students. Then there is this student/teacher, i dunno which one, i had curry on my left hand and she help me get tissue. Thanks.

After that we had to do survey collection of the Camp. There are some interesting comments on it, here, take a look.

Then we became runners and went round the sch, looking for ppl.

After leaving the sch, i went to orchard, join my family for a special dinner, which is over 100 DOLLAR and serving so small. T_T, i was wondering what is the occasion. It was werid because:

My dad never grumble abt the price
There was nothing special that day

So i asked till, i found out my parents last night prevent my sis going to swimming with her friends, so they going to drown her in cash... i was like WTF, i also wan. They replied they dun giv 2 shit where i go.
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Wed was sleepy, i decided not to go anywhere, and stay at home and relax. It might have been a boring day, then i had to go acupuncture. O.O. Reason for that? I had extreme pain in my knee when i hit something, EXTREME PAIN. The Chinese Doc, put 2 needles in my neck for my cough and sitting in front of com, gave me 3 needles on my leg for my knee.

I am a guy, can't cry, so what i do? I laughed and say pain pain. Well actually it wasn't really pain, but a real funny feeling. I can't decrible it in words, it was very very werid.
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All is Well

Plans

2008-06-14T00:31:00.000-07:00

Actually had plans to folo cindy and her friends from church, but cancelled it cuz i felt worst.

Yesterday i was feeling better, then after studying outside and then playing 2 hrs of batminton, it went back to stage 1 of sickness.

Well, at least i am clear headed now, no fever.

The Batminton is AWESOME.Dad was sick too so he didn't play. However, the older generation (uncles especially) were tough ass batminton player. They can't last long but they play like some veteran.

4 of them were playing and they played in such exaggerated movement, the rest of the families couldn't stop laughing, i laughed and coughed at the same time.

2 hrs felt like 10 mins, god it went by so fast.

My cousin has a batminton racket, half the size of usual rackets. I was like OMG....., but he is after all 5+ years old and the usual racket is 3/4 of his size.. LOL\

Some of my aunts played so comically, i was like imitating their moves to crack ppl up.

it was a awesome night... haha

All is Well

Fever

2008-06-09T05:27:00.000-07:00

I will post replies to Tag here cuz there is alot.

No pictures today. Sorry XD

Anyway, i had fever last night and had an eventful night.

I kept dreaming of a war between two factions in a city(Layman term)

Those who knows history and play computer games and know politics.

I dreamt i was a commander in Stalingrad, controling both sides like Company of Heroes Game, The Factions were
Democratic vs Republicans

I dreamt that the whole night and i was tossing and turning.Not a Nightmare, but not a dream i want.

I went to the doctor with my dad today. I had Throat infection, Flu and a 39.5 Celsius Fever.
I have Blocked Nose, Fever, Heavy Unpredicable coughing that hurts my chest

After that i went to the dentist, which he told me i can take off my lower part of braces at next visit XD

Andrea called me and we chatted for a few hours. She was.......queer today. Anyway we had a laugh and that is the main point and it was good. Although she called me a jerk(insult/truth/joking) for being insensitive, thus i must change that.

Found a good song Kiss From a Rose

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Tag Reply

Joelle- Thanks for the CIP thing and for the meeting of the modern millionaire monk, MMM

Arnanti- Why i asked abt Rasam? Well, it is my FAVOURITE SOUP XD

Wanyee-Oooo, Ok thanks, i will do the quiz, seems like fun,how you like the photo of yourself??

Eileen- Why ask abt Glenn, so interested in him ahhh.....You break the Year 2 guy's heart XD

Falah- I know it is disgusting but just for that picture, must pose mah

Jolene- Your Dear is Mine XD, he is never yours XP

All is Well mentally, physically not though

Days

2008-06-08T05:58:00.000-07:00

Well, i tink i am going to develop a fever.

Well, before i go down to bed to see the outcome of my fate, i will run the blog

My Sis and Me in the back of a car>>>>

FRIDAY
Chem started at 9 ended at 10.30 becuz cher see so little ppl come, (S4 and S2 only 20 come outta 60+.)
Study Physic under Mr Ting. Then go discuss project and homework(actually more a project so i went home first)

Called Andrea talked for an hour +, seems like Joelle Misinterpret something, she wasn't in deep trouble
I went bonkers after drinking heavily sugared Lemon Tea... went abit....Horny, well i will not talk abt it

After i went home, i had to go out to some BBQ... disgusting, nothing as good as glenn, somemore hired help, part of the fun of BBQ is to cook yourself. But i played badminton and found out my mum is a good surf.

It was a group of strangers so i went home early

Photos of Friday

I call her Bowl

Jackie and Mr Ting

Cindy

The Condo which the BBQ is held, BEAUTIFUL AIN"T IT XD

Saturday

Slept till 12, woke up and played till 4pm(actually wan to study at 2). Quite a boring day.

Sunday
Well, I woke up at 8.30, prepare to go out by 9, and moved out by 9.30. Objective?

To go to Novena. Lucky my dad fetch or else can't sleep that long.In fact i slept in the car.

Met Wan Yee, Pen Queen and JOELLE....we went to some temple which has a huge elevator. A Cute Parrot and a very cool monk who was a millionaire and help alot of people

He drove us in a van sponored by RI(SO Nice), then brought us to a abandoned Library(for 2 months+).
There,Joelle, Pen Queen, Wan Yee and Eileen(Who arrived later) and little old me had to sort out thousands of library books and record them down.

I remembered Wan Yee Reading the Little Ms SunShine, haha, she can be a good storyteller.

I remember a bloody load of dead cockroaches.

I tink Joelle Mum Bought us Lunch, Thanks Alot

i remember Joelle Socks was of a memorable type

I remember Wan Yee had a cinderella type of shoe, it will be cool if i can take a picture of someone putting it on for her, but nope, didn't get it

There was a irriating/cute child, irriating cuz he disturb my work, cute cuz he is cute -_-

It was BLOODY TIRING... so tiring i tink i going to get a fever.

Ended my day with dinner with Wan Yee, Eileen and Pen Queen,Joelle had to go off somewhere(she was in her car dozing, that piggy)

Too Bad Andrea didn't go, if she did, it will be more fun

Wan Yee Reading Little Ms SunShine

Eileen in a " I Dun care kinda look pose"

Eileen in a big shoe pose

Joelle Mum:

Wan Yee and Eileen Escaped Shot

The Cute Child

All is Well

THURSDAY

2008-06-05T08:45:00.000-07:00

Hmm, Every Sat i will go abit off and become very down. Well Nearly went downhill today but after i did a few things, i felt better.
Tis WK IS BUSY

I Feel Good>>> Spend 4 hours doing Hw...

Well Andrea asked me to go to school help her with shopping... i was like..WOW, i wanna see a shopaholic, i wanna see her spend 10000 dollar(not that much, maybe 1/3 of that amount). In the end, i end up as a man carrying carrot cake for the rest of the girls -_-". Morale of the Story? Hear properly or else u become Rabbit food

There is like 6 people b'day in July-August, important are Andrea(2808) and Joelle(1007)
However not so important are important, as we much treasure all friendship.
Wanda(0908)...Pen Queen, Eileen, hmm Crap, must go and ask liao

Then There is also classmates B'day Parties, should be interesting.

Interesting things that happen:

- I met Amir>>>>>

-I was having a wonderful dream, the alarm rang..F&*K

-I met a person who is a friend of Andrea call :Aziz, i call her Azra i tink, her hobby is PHOTOGRAPHY, HEHE

-I felt politics in S5 too. coool

-I mistaken someone for an old friend

-Jolene says to me: Dun snatch my dear when i am away...the dear is a guy... Oh dear... I mean... OMG

-KFC chicken Rocks

-I learn how to fight for what i wan
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O here are some photos, my class is very singing and very merry and dancy too.

Here is Cindy in the 2nd Cutest Shot i can take(Cutest is when her hair is tied wrongly)

Here is Cindy in her Ah Beng Shot

Here is the Fool taking a pictures of a Fool

Here is The Fool in front of the panda

Yu Wen, i remember i asked Hirohito to rate her 1-10, he gave her 2.
One for Pity and One for being Pathetic
I was laughing my head off
Cute Rite? flower we got from the floor

All is Well

Special

2008-06-01T07:43:00.001-07:00

Well, i am feeling better again, heck if teacher scold me, i have a bloody clear conscience and i don't care.

I tink every friday i have tis kinda sickness -_-", where i feel like complaining and scolding.

Well, from what i can see, i have a limited amount of care and concern.
Well, no one going to help me listen, so i just have to listen more.
Everyone is wrap up in his or her own problem, this ain't selfish, it is human nature.
So there is no one who cares about everyone, they only give that to the special person and a group of close friends.

Tis Wk's Today's Special:

btw.. tell u something i found out, i dunno whether it is true.
Don't say U noob, i know that!.. OMG u just found out?
Some ppl dun even know what is a milo dinosaur, so dun judge me

There is a friend, call A. I went home with her after school/work/class. A has a accent. So it is pretty hard to understand her. She was talking about a topic, the topic is abt situation F. So she started talking, i understand her quite ok, then i lost focus and i dunno what she saying. So i tried a technique, i trying linking back to topic F, then i begin to understand her.

Moral of the story:
I can't remember abt ppl, always asking tis few question:
How is wkend, day? your bf/gf? /Life?

I need to remember things about people, if i see person B, i must like download data abt him or her first then start talking -_-

So ppl, forgive me if i dun understand u, talking it seems, is psychological, not by sound waves

All is Well

Fuck

2008-05-31T06:00:00.000-07:00

Goddamn it

There is nothing good with being nice...

During Chem remedial, took out all my work to let my friends see, and guess what?

Someone took my chem fullscape, and all my work in it and never inform me...FUCK

I was so nice to let them see, and ppl had to abuse it, now i have to redo the goddamn thing

You know, what is the point of being nice to the world?

I help them, do work for them, print for them, scan for them? End of the day? they are so wrapped up in their own problems they dun giv a shit abt the rest of the world.

For what i tink? For a guy to find care and concern, you can't find it in other guys, for they are chasing girls, you can't find it in girls, for ppl will mistaken, you have to find in gfs or smt... and that is stressful tooo

Sry.. i am just so fcuked up abt my situation

All is Nasty

MAD AT MYSELF

2008-05-29T09:28:00.000-07:00

I AM SOOO MADDD AT MYSELF

I PLAYED FROM 7-12 midnight... OMFG...OMFG...OMFG!!!!!

I Did not doing hw... I Did not Studying... I Did not EXERCISING

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMFG!!!!!

I am Sooo MADDD AT MYSELF, IN FACT, I DELETED ALL MY GAMES, THAT IS ONE THING GOOD ABT ME, I CAN'T FEEL THE CONSEQUENCES

FEELS DAMN GOOD

NO MORE GAMES,I DUN CARE HOW GOOD IZZIT

I WILL STUDY AND EXERCISE

All is Well

2008-05-28T08:07:00.000-07:00

Hi fellow readers, i know i havn't been updating much recently, i just been gathering some pictures of my SEL camp and phy remedial

They gave personality profiling and this is what they say:
I should be a :Ski Instructor
My interest is :Law/Politics Athletics

I like this part in it, very true:
Mr Erh may prefer to take on a leadership role and he may assume such a role with a group of friends or co-workers.However,some members of his group may not see him as a leader and may hav some difficulty fully accepting his ways for exercising control and direction over them.

He tend to believe his strength is his efficiency in getting things done through his own efforts,rather than through the shared efforted of working with others

He seldom place alot of value on sticking to strict rules for doing things tha are important to wat he hopes to accompplish. He usually does what he thinks needs to be done when he is faced with what he sees as unnecessary hurdles or restrictions.He is basically quite flexible. He does not feel the need to follow rigid or long-established practices

It also said i am: Non-comforming,Expedient, Lively, Spontaneous,Vigilant,Suspicous,Abstracted,Imaginative, Tolerant of Disorder(my room is an example)

Daniel was Laughing when they say i was quite unrestrained

Here is some pictures

My Home Tutor, look like terrorist(well, she is in the class, terrorize us XD)

Her Helment can't fit so she had to use a scarf to cover the dust flying to her face

Tis is Cindy in a jacket

Tis Is Samantha, when i first saw her, i tot she is nuts XD, so lively and colourful specs.

Well she is lively and laugh alot, in fact, she laugh the most,

but she can hav black face sometime

Act Cute>>> XD Still Cute

Tis is Glenn, Funny guy in class, close friend of Samantha

He is a monkey, eating alot of banana(No lah, he not monkey, i made up the idea)

Tis is one funny shot i took today
Haha, look at Glenn, I showed them and they laughed till they die-ed

All is Well

The Fight

2008-05-26T06:47:00.000-07:00

Alright, alright, i am guilty, crap, guilty of returning to an old habit

That is COMPUTER GAMES

Just had my paws on some Dawn Of War SoulStorm and Quake Wars(full version), days ago

As soon as i had it, it becomes an addict.

I hate it

It doesn't gives me knowledge, it doesn't give me society learning, it doesn't solve any problems

It is like honey, where u can run away from your problems for an hour, the sweetest honey

DAMN IT......... at least when i dun do hw but chat with friends, i gain something... i gain nth here

For Playing and for Eating Lunch and for not exercising today, i will miss lunch tml and dun touch the com for a wk. I SWEAR BY THE PHEONIX

The person up there, giv me strength to overcome my addiction, my lack of determination

HAHA

2008-05-23T04:11:00.000-07:00

Alright, Mr Lonely Man is 80% Working Again XD

Well, saying it all out in the blog helps, since i am not the type to say my problems

Anyway....

Plenty of Work For Holidays

Today kena scolded like hell, for 1 and a half hour we kena scolded, but dunno why, i just feel good today

Thanks Falah, for trying to cheer me up

Hmm, well, i wan to LOSE 10KG IN TIS MONTH, TRAINING..ARGGHHHH!!! XD

I have to do the youth achievement award program or something...VOLUNTEER...AHHH

Well i find Andrea and Joelle for that

Thank Falah

All is Well

My troubles

2008-05-22T04:52:00.000-07:00

Well today is a good day, which turn sour in the end

First i lost my PSP,if i was bad.. i will write a whole load of vulgar words here.
I wanted to just emo and think of my lost, it might ease the pain

However, primary school kids were there, they were asking me not to cry(i was in that position but ain't crying)
So i just throw away the problem,buried it deep in my heart and laugh, laugh till i reach home, where it creeps up my soul again.

Then Another major problem that has been bugging me since the dawn of time, i don't know whether u tink it is worst or lesser than your problems but this is my Major Pain to me so listen up

You know the feeling where u find the girl/guy of your dreams and wanna stay with them forever, the feeling of heart pounding, wanting to share every goddamn thing with her/him? Then if she/he rejects u, u tell everyone abt it and emo abt it and hate it till the cows come home?Then if dun hav the courage to tell, he/her u can at least protect her, at least have a goal?

The feeling where you feel that one person is thinking of you most of the time?When there is trouble u can find that person, where he or she is truly yours(at least for the moment) and first place in her heart and u can confide in her

The feeling of having a target in life, where u strive to achieve whatever you wan with your full heart?The feeling that u know yourself in and out and know what u are, and who u are?(etc below)

Well, i believe that i was "quiet", someone told me i was "noisy"(this is a example)
You just lose yourself again, dun even knowing who the heck u are.
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I don't have all this feelings?

At least if i had a goal, i will feel, hate,love,fear,anger,happiness, but all i feel, is the hollow emptiness that comes with the lack of all this feeling

i do feel anger, i do feel hate, i do feel all those feeling, but they are not constant.

If u kena rejected, u will be emo for the longest time ever, or angry for the longest time ever
i lack that, i can find comfort, i can find happiness, but they are like dust in the wind, coming and going in the slightest change

A movie with friends, a outing, lunch together, dust in the wind

dust are easy to grab, easy to fly away, what happens when all the dust goes to their favourite dust?

I wan to feel, sad, happy,anger,fear, hope, get me? i wan to FEEL

I don't know who i am?
I don't know why am i living?
I don't know what the hell am i doing?
And unlike other problems, this problem, only i can fix
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Well if u actually read throughly to the end, my sincere thanks,
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Ok lets buried it all again under the sand

On a happier note, today is CIP day for my class... had alot of fun, only spoiled by the end of my psp

CONGRATS TO JACKIE,SHAMINI,GAYA,JOLENE,SAMANTHA and me

For Making CIP a Success

Congrats to Shi An to be the first guy to know a New Zealand girl first( All the class guys were like, WTF?)

Here are pictures of CIP in primary school

Jackie and Glenn>>>>

Me in the booth>>>>>

Me in the LEAST RIDICULOUS PHOTOGRAPH>>>

It was fun

All is Somewhat well

Haha

2008-05-20T05:43:00.000-07:00

Ok here are some random pictures

My Mood is Above Average, after a low for a few days last week

Tis wk is busy busy busy

As usual of course.
However, what u can't do without your friends?

I went out with jackie and cat on monday to discuss project

In the end project is 20% fun 80%

Today i finally spend some time with Andrea and Joelle, sigh...even if i talk to them, ppl interrupt...

Well, Finally talked to grace.... i tink she forgotten i called her wrong name >.<, lucky

Jackie>>>>
JE KFC

Cat with killer look>>>>
JE KFC

Jonathan year 2 sleeping>>>>>>>
End of Sch

Cindy>>>>>>
Chinese Lesson

Eileen of 08S5 First PICTURE>>> ( Second to the Right)
The Chinese girl under her and beside her is Joelle and Wanda Respectively
Eileen Send the Pic to me one >.<

All is Well

Special

2008-05-17T07:36:00.000-07:00

Tis Special i Write why Must we always be happy

The World is full of saddness
Everyone is full of trouble
Most People are selfish

Important things in life

Do not aid ppl if u are in trouble yourself, for most ppl won't return the favour and help themselves first

Be Happy always and bounce back quickly for every second u are moody, 5 ppl are worried

Always Smile for always believe that everyone has worst problems than u(That means dun fall into self-pity)

Most of The Time we are angry or sad it is becuz we can't control our emotions, if u are angry or sad, let it out at the correct time, wrong timing will cause worst stuff to happen

THERE IS ALWAYS PPL WORST OFF THAN U

So Everytime I fall into self-pity or saddness, i just remember that everyone problem is worst, even if yours might be worst, others may not be as strong to stand it.

SO IN SHORT, KEEP SMILING

Tml i write abt i go Pulan Ubin, GOOD PLACE, I TINK CLASS OUTING GO THERE XD

All is WELL

Angel Guide Us

2008-05-16T08:04:00.000-07:00

Well i know i hav been posting problems and close to sad crap on the blog, so today i will be different

Even though today alot of my friends were.....nvm

Tis is Last SUNDAY

Mother's day photo XD

My sis and me>>>

My cousin and me

My cousin and his dad

Most of the Fathers XD

All is Well

Hello

2008-05-15T06:05:00.000-07:00

Hello Ladies and Gents
Monkeys and Gorllias

It is a fine day, cuz finally finish Poster XD

Now i still got problem lah, the skit, i need to find the ppl practice on sat

Now my biggest worry is novelty event cuz i dun even know what the fuck is it

(As i typing tis, i know cuz my senior told me, eggs and all, haha)

Tml will be heck of a day, so i will sleep soon, regardless the cost

Cost is Maths
Chem HW
BUT I DUN GIV A SHIT

HAHA

Alright Go study GP liao, night.... XD

Complete Evaluation of Stress

2008-05-14T06:07:00.000-07:00

Alright, I finally know wat happen when i stress

short term stress-High and Talk Alot
Long term stress-Outburst of Anger and Lack of Confidence

MI has been hectic tis wk and will get worst next wk

Other than usual HW

CIP project-I leader for my group, plan skit, plan board for 34 classes of primary sch kids to see
Have to rush Jackie for Board
Have to rush Shirt for Class
Have to rush class fund collection
Running for House on Sports Day( I Must Be Nuts)
Playing Carrom for class and getting slaughtered

Now i dun even have time to be sad or unproductive, every second counts. First Time in My Life, Feelings is a Luxury
I am like numb to stress or more work, i just keep trying to put 100%
I can't do the things i do when i relax, sigh....

Anyway i Flared up abit at Joelle cuz i was abit stress, Lucky she was understanding

All is Well but stress

Right Before Your Eyes

2008-05-11T07:47:00.000-07:00

Today's Special

Happy Mothers Day to All, I will put my celebration photos tml... long story why can't put now so anyway......

Well, If there is one national Anthem for me for me it will be tis song. I will highlight parts of great importance to me XD

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Right Before Your Eyes
Hoobastank
DareDevil the Movie

When the door shuts
Don’t worry about me
Its not attention that I want from you
I need you to trust who I’m gonna be
And in everything I’m going to do

Cause I’m not afraid
Of what I don’t know
For understanding is all that I yearn
What is for sure is I’m gonna to go
I’m gonna to live and I’m going to learn

And I know there will be mistakes that I will make
But I know they’re not worse than chances I don’t take, take
Right before your eyes I am changing, changing
New life on the inside I am changing, changing

When the door shuts
Its shuts in front of me
A new person that I have become
I follow my heart to my destiny
But living in fear and sorrow is done

There will be no more feeling that I’m all alone
I will surround myself with things that help me grow, grow
Right before your eyes I am changing, changing
New life on the inside I am changing, changing

Right before your eyes I am changing, changing
New life on the inside I am changing, changing
Right before your eyes I am changing, changing
New life on the inside I am changing, changing

Right before your eyes
Right before your eyes
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How u tink of it, Plz Tag the Answer XD

All is Well

Sat

2008-05-09T22:42:00.001-07:00

Hello Cute Little Boys and Girls

sry today no pic XP

it is sat afternoon and after 10.75 hours of sleep, i feel soooo good.

Today everyone is busy with I-day, Param going to Photography, Brian with his Classes.
Left me and Jolene, i chat with her abit abt some offline/online thing just 10 min ago.

So i am stuck at home, prepared to go out at Danial's command cuz he is leader for my static display group.

I sms him already, no reply...zzzz do i hav to take the lead again...zzzz.

Anyway, yesterday was a fine day.
Ms J was nice yesterday, never scolded us, instead she talked to us abt funds and stuff. I like her better if she talked and not scold.

O yea i am suppose to find abt HF stuff..chem

Andrea was sick so i had to acc her to the bus stop

I bought my fav chicken.....fat and grease and delicious.. once in a while only bah
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So now i am stuck at home waiting, well at least for once, the world is peaceful. I tink i will do hw today bah.
Try to do 4 ppl's work by myself

O well, tml will be busy, so i should take the breather today.
Happy Wkend

All is Well

2008-05-08T06:32:00.000-07:00

Studying on Monday i tink >>>

I DUN GIV A SHIT, I WILL POST ONE POST

Tis wk damn busy, were my lowest on wed

Lucky had Andrea, Joelle and Wushu, 3 hours of running away, felt so good for awhile

The class is effective, but lack one thing and it is due to one reason.
We wanna go home fast -_-. So people tend to go home and do. Tis cause a lack in cooporation which i am so worried about.

Now my body and mind is asking me to run, but if even me run from my duties, who will do their's?
Sigh, alright i go check up with my leaders

Anyway The leaders were effective at least. Thanks You Khairl, Khairul, Danial.
We no need encouragment, we do not need fear, we need someone to point us to the correct location.
It is quite exhausting to do that....sigh...link up...sync...plan....

I could just Drop all of them and do hw, but nah, not going to run again

Tis are photos of tis Wk, randomly taken

Glenn>>>>

Daniel>>>

Daniel 2>>>

Jolene and Cindy(Jolene is the one with peace)

Daniel(we were pulling drinks on BBQ)(Just Found it)

My Wushu Captain

Desmond with Marks on his face after he slept

Monday

2008-05-05T05:41:00.000-07:00

Today was a baaaaaaaaaaaaaad day. XD

However i dun feel "the knife in the heart" feeling cuz it ain't really hurt that location

Anyway. Chinese was good, got praise for being first and dumb
GP was HELL, cher threaten to go cuz the Lecture theater was so noisy,we didn't quiet down, she went off. I suddenly went "ICE" and fearlessly walked up like i dun giv a damn(if i tink it thru now, i will never go up). I picked up the mic and told off the entire hall of students. There were jeering and cheering but i was numb. Then once i return to seat cuz the teacher came back, i was praise like hell, sooo embarrassing.............
Maths was ok, kena scolded too, but cher scolded with a smiling face... i was like WTF?
Chem was one big scolding, cher said we were the first batch to actually cause her to hav a headache marking our work.
P.E. and afterwards was fun

Sigh... i know i ain't a great leader and all..shouldn't hav gone up, but heck, if the same thing happen, i will hav gone up again, dumb ain't me.-_-

From Primary School till now, life was one big scolding, we were the first one to blah, blah, blah(or negative), we were the worst batch...the worst........ SIGH.... I tot i could change that, i wish i could change that, i wan to be a normal student in a class which ain't the worst nor the best

So i felt an enormous wave of saddness today, some felt anger, some felt fear, but i felt saddness
I don't wan history to repeat itself.....never again

Since so many tag, i reply here(By Date)

Leen: Hello Silence Girl XD, pass NAFRA?

Jolene: O thx, marinate, u help marinate also ah? O yea hor, dun care, i should post your pictures on the net, show everyone a MI MODEL XD

Cat: Cat Eat fish, sooo of course u help finish the "fish" XD, ok lah, u got BBQ too, i add that in XD, happy ^^? Send u pictures....hmm i pass in a Dise

Sister: Who is B? hmm, let me think and i post on your blog, kk XD

HuiJen- Yup HuiJen attitude cuz i really miss your unique personality, haha, but sad too busy, if u free one day, we go out together ??

All is abit well

Empty

2008-05-03T09:56:00.000-07:00

Today is Class BBQ
Well, i went out 10am, came back 12AM.

Bloody Tired............

Morning go meet Glenn, Daniel, Jackie,Jolene and Towfiq

In the end Towfiq never come.

So we all went to Euno and met Rey.

After that we go to supermarket buy bloody lot of stuff and at the same time entertain call for assistance, help and notices.

It was confusing.

In the end went Rey house to marinate chicken, i learn how to gut a squid from scratch XD.

Here is a photo of rey house with Jolene>>>

After that Daniel and Me went to buy Drinks while they stayed back to continue as we both did the least.

It was the bloody worst 1 hour + as we drag 9 bottles of drinks everywhere.

Thank your Aunty for Helping us get there.

Somemore pit so far....took a taxi to reach there

We were so pissed and tired vulgar words like "F" came out

lucky, once we were all together, things went smoothly

Wat i didn't expect
-Ms J never come
-At first 1/3 say can't come, 2/3 can come, in the end 1/3 came 2/3 didn't appear
-No Ice

Glenn Chicken marinate sauce was simply outta tis world
The chicken for the first time in BBQ, i ate like 5 or 6

Wat i didn't expect:(positive):
Yu Wen to come
Guys took off shirt
-A guy i know as Defender from TP came to assist
We played a game where i shouted my ass off as adrenaline rush was high
-The True game was soo good

Special Thanks to:

Glenn-For the Super Sauce of chicken
Rey- For the Use of His house to marina the chicken
Jackie- For His assistance to marina the chicken
Khairul- For The Jokes, to marina the chicken(JK JK)
Khairl-For the Tent
Yu Wen- For the Poker Cards
Chelsea- For the Invention of killer games with cards
Meitty- For Coming and Pinking
Cat- For Finishing the extremely"tasty" fish which was a "little" bit spicy( and helping with BBQ cooking, Is the Meow Happy now?)
Jolene- For Looking like Babe Watch there(Marinate Chicken too)
Defender-For his Experience in BBQ

Lines i remember
"Cat said the Fish was ABIT spicy"(Someone after he/she ate a "spicy" fish)
"U Moron, U Asshole, U MotherF**Ker, U Bitch, U Booch,U Retard, U Holyshit"(Very Dramatic)
":Glenn U *******(after eating a chicken", Replied" Izzit bad?" I said" HELL NO, IT IS DAMN GOOD"
"Paradox, Ms J and Towfiq are the ones who practically begged us to come and yet didn't come themselves"

IT WAS DAMN FUN

Congrats Jackie and Jolene, on ...dun wan to say private

ALL IS WELL

Worry

2008-05-02T09:11:00.000-07:00

Wah.. tml BBQ Alot of Stuff to plan

Special thxs to Jackie, Glenn, Jolene and Towfiq for Planning, i did nothing XD

tml i going out with them at 10 to work out the stuff

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I worry abt the class sia, all of them seem damn stress, socially or educationally, need to do the board too but coordination not good

anyway, i hav to worry abt myself first, that is a priority.

Work:
Film Design
Proposal
Board
Class-T-Shirt
Chinese Hw
Chem Assignment 3b and Tutorial 3b

Did i miss out anything?

O yea i watched Ironman with Param and Brian today, 2 hours of thoughtlesss relaxation

All is Well

Well

2008-05-01T08:07:00.000-07:00

I just couldn't resist the attempt

So Jackie and Me did tis

I hope she dun mind

To all 08S2, Keep Holding On

Cheer Up Everyone XD

Someone

2008-04-30T06:50:00.000-07:00

Alright tis ain't a really important person to me, but he is worth talking abt
Since i havn't write abt Special. Tis will be special

The Guy is i only know him for a few months but now is my good buddy.

He is proactive, a good runner, humble, kind, nice, understanding... everything i aspire to be

A teacher compared me to him, thus i then realize that. I realize alot of things since then

I admit, i am not the best , not the best for the work, not the best, i lose, i get stage fright in stuff.

But he talks abt problem that i didn't care to help in. If i wan to be student counciler, i should start caring abt fellow students.

A counciller must not care abt fame and stuff, they must genuinely wan to help

I realize I just wan the pride and fame, never caring abt the responsibility that comes with it.

I am a bloody fool. I should just be a normal student and live a life that 90% of the ppl is living.

So i got two path
1. Live the same life as last time, relax and nearly without responsibility
2. Learn from him

I have no experience in the role i hav now... i feel like god send him down to guide and humble me.
The Simple Game i won , that game i won in the first few days of class, why did i win?
If i lost, i will be in another role, a lesser one, a easier one

So now the question is.... will u all trust me, guide me when i am wrong, help me get up, be patience abt my mistakes?

I dun hope to do the same thing as next year, but will u let me leave a legacy ?

Point of View

2008-04-30T06:04:00.000-07:00

Today was Ok lah

HT was pack, full of announcments.

Congrats to Renaldy, Towfiq,Cindy,Jolene and Bryan for getting to perform on stage

Wushu was tough as usual, but i making progress, that is all i need.

Met Andrea and Joelle after sch. Met 2 new ppl, Jonathan and David

Changes needed to be made

I asked Hids abt how am i going to change it, she told me alot of stuff, i dun wan to write them down

Just rethink what i am doing now, anyway from another point of view, i got another plan, maybe i will use tis plan till end of may.

Thanks Hids

Lets see:

I wan to be the best i can be
I wan to enjoy my life
I wan to be myself

All is Well

Werid

2008-04-29T06:24:00.000-07:00

Today i donated BLOOD

HAHA that is me with bandage after the thing

It was scary.
I was stress all the way so i started talking like mad and laughing like mad
Eileen, Me, Lav, Roshni, Cat, Shi An Went

Only Lav, Me, Roshni and Shi An donated

Me and Roshni ain't full pack
(apparently my blood refuse to flow and Roshni feels faint)

Eileen had a problem when the needle was inserted
Cat Vein was too thin

I was joking all the way in the morning cuz of the funny kinda of stress.

It hurts but not that bad, took alot of freebies.
It was a fun experience, i shall cherish it

All is Well

Work

2008-04-28T05:56:00.000-07:00

I found tis on horoscope:

You are really wonderful Capricorn: this week you will solve different problems at work without fretting about it at home. You're able to shake everything off before you cross the threshold. This is especially positive in the light of the number of problems you encounter at work. You don't let yourself be drawn out. This is going to be an important and busy week for you Capricorn, no question about it!
Mind that you don't impede your social improvement by rejecting an offer out of loyalty to your current colleagues and employer. When all is said and done, everyone chooses what is best for him- or herself. Since everyone does this, you should follow suit.
Try finding a balance between remaining loyal to your ideas and feelings on the one hand and to your social development on the other hand.
The best day for the Capricorn is the Thursday.

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I got soooo many problems and all are difficult, i can solve all? bullshit. In fact at home is where the fretting comes

Out of loyalty? i hope so, social improvement is what i always needs

My idea and feelings and social development? ok lah tis part quite true

LOL like DUH, IT IS HOLIDAY

Tis wk horoscope is ridiculous, anyway, today there is no devil eating me up. Whew, feels much better.
last 3 days was full of devil eating my heart out, today is good cuz i feel no bad thing in my chest.

Maybe becuz we did a skit today which i lost all face. but who gives a crap? Maybe Cat will put photos up, CATTT!!!

Sweet Night

2008-04-26T09:52:00.001-07:00

Yawn, abt to sleep liao, eyes going to shut

Anyway, Tis two days has been hectic

Yesterday, Took alot of mental blow

Today was a day of up and down.

Anyway, i was mad at Andrea,Joelle and Wanda for tricking me, i dun wan to think abt it, makes me fume

I found out smt important.

All my problems, my desperation, my hopes. All could be solve if i answer tis

What Do i Wan in Life?

So i was like, sigh... how to answer

Anyway, tis few days were fun too, but i am really tired, maybe tml i type

Alright Night

All is Well

Today

2008-04-24T05:45:00.001-07:00

Finally, the shadow has lifted

Feeling down for a few days liao, now i am again, happy.

Maybe becuz i got 10/12 for a test. Maybe becuz we making real progress in my project. Maybe becuz i did well for a presentation i spend 10 mins doing

I fear to lose smt, i dunno why i fear? insecurity? I dunno. But i remember Andrea said abt unsecured guys" Get a Grip"

So i trying to not fear to lose something. It is tis fear that makes me nervous around ppl, if i get rid of it.......

It is only around ppl i am comfortable with or not scared to lose that i am normal.

Day was great as usual.

but i dun feel like going into details of my daily life. lets do smt different.....

Tis is a Song i always hear when i need to cheer up or i am already incredibly happy

The Starting Line-The World
You've gotta hold, hold open my eyelids
If you're gonna shake, shake, shake 'til the morning
I'm gonna put, put things in perspective
And it's gonna take, take, take my precious time
All we need is a reason
For us to dance, dance, dance 'til the break of dawn
All I need is a hook now
For us to shout, shout, shout these words out

Cuz we're all, all, all
We're all...
You know we're all a part of the world, of course
If you know it sing out
Yeah, sing it out

I'm gonna snap back into formation
And get to work, work, work 'til the job gets done
Everyone's getting ready
Cuz they've been wait, wait, waiting for Friday night
All we need is a chance now
For, for us to get, get down in the after hours
All you need is a voice now
For us to shout, shout, shout these words out

Cuz we're all, all, all
We're all...
You know we're all a part of the world, of course
If you know it sing out
Yeah, sing it out
Cuz we're all a part
You know we're all a part of the world, of course
If you know it sing out
Yeah, sing it out

Work, work, work
Should, should, should
Good, good, good
I'm gonna keep it up, keep it up
Gonna keep it up, keep it up
Work, work, work if you
Should, should, should and you're
Good, good, good, all right now
Keep it up, keep it up, keep it

Cuz we're all, we're part
You know we're all a part of the world, of course
If you know it sing it out
Yeah, sing it cuz we're all, all, all
We're all
You know we're all a part of the world, of course
And if you're feeling me sing it out
Yeah, sing it cuz we're all
We're part
You know we're all a part of the world, of course
If you know it sing it out
Yeah, sing it out

Everytime i hear tis, i feel like i can dance a very funny dance
and i can feel like i can go on stage to sing tis

All is Well, but changes must be made

2008-04-23T05:59:00.000-07:00

Well, feeling down recently

Well, due to the lack of sense of victory

I need to score well for smt, or win a competition.

After countless scolding by Ms.J and Wushu, I need a victory.

A praise from a teacher, a 9/10 for a test, voted the best for.........

Especially proving someone wrong, that feels so good

Yup all these

Anyway today was great, P.E. was power, teacher wasn't here so Glenn, Jackie and a few others and me do warm up run.

Then Cher come and after pull-up and long jump(ARGHHH still less than 200). Run another 4 rounds

I was like dead tired, but i must be siao for i ask cher for another run. So jackie, glenn and me, ran again

Chinese was fun, had many laughs

Chem was fun for the first time, she was in a good mood

Wushu was...fun lah, alot of ppl now, haha

Wait i check my phone.............

WTF, 3 miss call, one from my best friend Andrea

I hate tis, can't spend alot of time with them, thxs to work and all the other crappy stuff. I mean i enjoy work as well but not as much. It is Annoying.

Hope that they will folo me tis sat late afternoon go buy "something" XD maybe go Andrea house in the meantime XD

2008-04-19T02:51:00.000-07:00

Finally I know how to post videos

ZZZZ played caram today for zircon. I was SLAUGHTERED( what u expect from a guy who never played it for 4 years+)

They Put me against the pros there, i tried my best but to no avail
Score 4:17
Second Game 1:17

Jackie and Cindy(team game, unlike my single) was better 14:17

Completely Miss Wushu due to that, sigh.......

Anyway i manage to Upload Videos XD

Tis is Us Training for Opening of Mosquito CIP project, it is the opening Grabber
Tis Is Jackie on his b'day(quite short), quite long ago

Tis is Caderina, just for fun shot in the lecture room

Tis is Nick, we singing Happy B'day to him

Tis is Wushu Team feeding Nick on his B'day,(when i start it, i was feeding him)

The Cake Was A MESSS

HAPPY B"DAY TO NICK

Tis Is Mint(Leo),Nick good friend, feeding him

Tis is Xing Mei Feeding Nick

Tis is Us Having Fun

Anyway Welcome Elvin to Wushu(he was the guy taking the photo(Cheryl wasn't in there cuz she tot she ain't photogenic, hell ,neither am i, but still i went)

We ended the day going to West mall and go KFC XD

All is Well

Darkest Secrets

2008-04-18T06:26:00.000-07:00

Hello, I think i will write my SPECIAL in Advance

U always known me as cheerful, an ass and sometime stubborn guy

Well, even me have my bad times, tis are all the times that i forgive but quite hard to forget.
I just buried them deep in my heart and a wrong word by a guy can flame it up again

There are Essentially 3 things
They might seem like nothing to u, but those are great things in my life. I am not embarrassed to say. They are over and nothing can change them

Lets go By Date

Sec 2 Year 2005

To understand tis, u have to go back to the past. I had a so call "gf" in K2. I forgot how i confessed to her and everything. We went on date once and she waited for me after sch(when we were in primary). I was blessed and very happy.Then she didn't call for years, i tot she wanted to concentrate on studies, so i didn't care. Last i saw her was Primary 4.

The bond between us wasn't the issue. It was my mother. The reason she didn't call was that my mum, told them that i am busy with my studies.
Do u know the feeling where one of the most precious thing u once held was pushed away by someone close?
I knew it only in sec 2. By that time the bond was already lost. However, i never forgot that she did it without my consent.She did decisions for me without my consent. It was like betrayal.

I deserve to decide who i wanna date, even in my pre-puberty life

Sec 4 Year 2007

Tis is abt Param, My best pal. If he read tis, he should not be ashamed, for what he did, he did for his own happiness, it is right for ppl to chase their happiness.

To understand, u need to understand ,Brian, Param and Me were like best buds and still are. from sec 1-4+. We were the three musketeers. The 3 bros. Betrayal was the last thing in my mind

The Root begin(As Ms Sali) said, in April, at the first Prefect Investiture(if i spell correctly). Even thought Param was Prefects and Brian was NPCC, we spend more time together and less time there. It was essentially perfect.

By May, Smt wrong happen.
Param started ignoring Brian and Me and always claim he is busy with prefects.
At first we were understanding. But We were not dumb. We are being trashed away

Close to the mid of May, i nearly decided to hack off param, hack off the stress. Lucky Ms Sali Gather us to sort it out. The wound wasn't close. it was just cemented as we never express our feelings. My heart at that time, thirst for vengeance.So after 2 more months i broke off all relations with him, ignoring him

Actually come to think of it, i was quite childish, making more friends just to win him.
By 2 months before O, i was Emotionally Exhausted(due to many reasons) and couldn't continue the fight, i just wan to study. However God had mercy, Param gather some guts and rectify with me. We all could study together again.

Thru that, i learn to embrace my feelings. To tolerate, to understand, to express feelings. For Hidding feelings is the worst thing u can do to a long-term relationship or friendship.That is what if u have something against me, i will aggressively ask u to rectify abt it
I also learn never to count on anyone alone

I also found out that i nearly fallen that time. Became an ass because i tot it was cool.Became who i wanted to be, not who i am.

It is like one of those great stories u hear. By Dec i realize everything. Experience alot more than usual. The Consequence of that goes a long way.

Holiday(Post O lvl Results) 2008

Tis is abt my parents. I had good enough results to go JC. However i wanted to go Poly cuz i am a relaxer type(Although the end is still Uni)

My Mum and Dad wan me to go JC. I had a serious argument
Their Arguement- If i can go JC why not, it is better, i will be the first Science Student in my generation of cousins
Higher Chance of going Poly
My Arguement -It is my decision, stop influencing, it is my Life

I havn't give some real thoughts to it actually, but with my dad and mum voice in my head, how the HECK AM I SUPPOSE TO CHOOSE UNBIASEDLY?
The Next Day My Mum Told me tearfully she will respect my choice, but the damage was already done, there is no turnning back

My Dad Never Really Was Wrong in his Life. So i will trust him one last time , despite him having no experience of JC

So now i am in MI, i won't say i am not happy, but yesterday, he asked," JC so much work meh?" That Flare me up. Because it shows how little he knows abt the path he had the nerve to choose for me (Lucky i held it under control)

But there is one thing i will do, If i ever Fail to Get A Level, i will never forgive them, I will Sponsor them money for old age, but that is all i will do, nth else, nth else. I will forever be mad at them, a wound that never will be healed

I HATE THEM FOR CHOSING MY LIFE, I HATE MYSELF FOR NOT HELPING MYSELF

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If u notice story 1 and 3 are somewhat the same.
I wan to decide my life, not anyone else, even though i hav no decision, dun choose for me

Well, Writing all these could get a guy Emo. I go and relax, if not i will be angry and sad at the same time

Param and My Parents, if u read tis, plz understand. What has been done can't be undone, nothing can be done to make the scar disappear. I request you do not talk abt tis

<<<>>>

Let the A Level and it's ailles come, they shall not find The Pheonix Unprepared
For Despite what my parents done, i want them to be right, ONCE LAST TIME

All is Well(feeling Patriotic)

Wkend

2008-04-18T06:17:00.000-07:00

WEEKEND IS FINALLY HERE

XD

haha, wkend is here, i love wkend, no need wake up.................zzzz i spoke too soon
Sigh...tml got Wushu... I WANNNA SLEEEEEEPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP
Then Wushu Clash with Zircon House matters(there are 4 houses in my sch)

Sigh.........The Glory of Sleep

Anyway, we presented the mosquito skit to the class, we were quite interrupted in the practice and couldn't get a good one
So we screwed up in the real thing. However we had some really good comments to work on

Ms.J was also one of the reason we screwed up, we are all scared of her. Lucky I iced up there

I always had friday with Activites so i need a breather XD

tml no plan, well, no plan is the best plan, i see what comes up and i just go. Or go home and zZzZzZzZzZz

Just another day

2008-04-17T05:42:00.000-07:00

Actually wanna put 4 pictures here(3 of classmate, one sneak shot of Andrea and Joelle)
But i guess Andrea will kill me if i do

Sch was as usual
Werid thing was 1/3 of the class wasn't here
Glenn and Bryan not here... so sad
Sigh, without Glenn not fun...he quite funny
Bryan(My "Gay" Partner) not here, told him that "I dun feel the need without u" HAHAHA, That Gotta Freak Him Out

Anyway, I believe we should be more open. When my friends sleepy they lay on my shoulder and Leg. When i sleepy, i lay on them too. We Like to hug each other or just lay down on each other. I always hug jackie when he comes. hug Glenn, hug Yu Wen sometime. Haha, we all deserve a hug, scientist proven it gives a good feeling XD. After all we are like brothers and sisters XD

Here is a pictures of my Dengue Fever Team doing work together

They Quite Shy XD
(Cat, Shi An, Samantha, Daniel) From The Left

This is Glenn( i wonder who took tis)

Daniel and Eileen

Anyway, i feel really bad that Andrea( A special Pencil) and Joelle (Chocolate) each gave me something today, I hardly receive gifts and i feel guilty abt not giving them something...any suggestions?

You see, i hardly receive gifts from friends , Every Gift i hav, i treasure them like hell and i believe i must return them.
What you expect? Most of the times i didn't receive stuff, i won or bought them

All is Well

Post Me

2008-04-16T05:50:00.001-07:00

Well Finally not that busy, can post smt, my first VIDEO SOMEMORE XD(Changed, smt wrong with video, upload another day)

Today P.E. Was Crazy, then Ms.J was crazy, scolded me like crazy cuz i did the job at the wrong time. Ask me to resign but my classmates were nice, told me not too, i was very touched

Today's Wushu was the toughest, i am as usual, the weakest(what u expect from a Ex-Infocomm Prez/Co-Prez)

But i did the best to my ability. Went Home with Andrea,Eileen, Joelle,Wanda(by The Letters, A is First...blah blah)

Sigh, i kena hook on Crisis Core(PSP), played till very late daily, sigh, i need to get away from it....

All is Well

Barely

2008-04-15T07:32:00.001-07:00

I know I know, never wrote the special tis wk, quite busy LAH

Nth much to say, life has been as usual.TOOO MUCH COMPETITION, that is the problem XD

Fought With B9 in Debate, lost it, thanks to me bah, it is cool lah, i will improve and i will take it back next year

I prayed that i will not lost to Andrea.... I didn't win....neither did i lost to her cuz, HAHA, her team lost too

Sry Hids and Falah, i was rushing today, chat with u two soon, miss you girls XD

Class moves tooo slow, need a way to fasten it

Damn Cold Night

2008-04-11T09:40:00.000-07:00

It is a damn cold night, not physically but mentally

Met AJ,Kama-Sutra Man(dun ask),L.Y., Chiong and Brandon in the morning as usual, they had some disturbing stories

Tis is Chiong>>>>>

Sch was good, stayed with Cindy cuz waiting for friends, Andrea, Chiong and now my new friend Misery(not actually spelling but anyway, yep Misery) join us, in the end Joelle went home, so we go home ourselves

Went out with Param and Brian to Sim Lim Square, I kept insisting to play bleach cuz, yep, i wanna try my new skills XD) Brian was irritated XD. Anyway it was a fun outing,ended at 10pm, i ate alot, i never run 2 days liao, i scared fat again. SIGH....I SWEAR BY THE PHEONIX TML I WILL RUN

Then had a talk with Andrea and dled Bleach from Brian thru the night...tml got sch sia....siannn.

All is Well in a way

Win

2008-04-09T05:27:00.000-07:00

Congrats my sis for winning 1st in 8X50 metre XD

Today

2008-04-09T04:49:00.000-07:00

Today is JACKIE's Birthday, Happy Birthday buddy

Today was a blur, chinese class was good, i was praying that Ms J wouldn't scold me when she was talking abt chem tis morning. My silent prayer was answered!!

BY THE WAY I AM NOT CHRISTIAN

I believe in the almighty, but he is God. Not Christian God, God can be Buddha, Allah or RA or Zeus or smt....
So i believe in "God"
I won't touch on tis issue, since religion is a touchy issue

School was good, no Wushu so i went for some E-Club thing.

Angel(not the one abv, but evangeline) brought ALOT of snacks for MT period, eating like siao XD
Chinese lesson was fun we were talking abt Niu Che Shui(ChinaTown), here was one of the comment:

I was laughing like hell

Anyway, Jasmine was going for some acting thing, i saw her, wahhh so Chio sia.... see XD

And tis is her with her friend

Tis was Samantha writing on Glenn Paper few days ago

Then i met Andrea and Joelle( I ONLY SAID IT 7TH TIMES), they PS me, i was so happily reading books in West Mall when they called to say they run liao...i was like WTH

Too Bad I Can't Take Pictures of Them.......ZZZZZZ.... ANDREA AND JOELLE IF U READING TIS, WHEN CAN I TAKE PICTURES OF U HERE??? >.<

All is Well

Whatever

2008-04-08T02:26:00.000-07:00

Sigh, actually had a bad morning, kena scolded by Ms. J for not doing my Class Rep job well. Well, i always forgo hw due to duties and duties due to friends.

Then I didn't finish my Eco's Test
Then I sucked in Chem Experiment(At the written work)

One thing i look forward too is when i had my first break. All Thoughts of defeat and failure fled thru my mind, thx to Andrea and Joelle.

There was one classmate who spoke to me abt something:" When first day they ask for class rep and Assist class Rep, u both so endu u know." It was quite true and it gave me some thought.....i did volunteer, i should do my job well.

Now that i have tis job, i dun wan it.... i wan to miss deadlines, go out with friends and spend my life freely.

Today's Admin:
Yu Wen Out of Sch Notice
Find YCK(or smt like that) for my password for MI Link
Chelsea holding on to answer, have to get it back
File Collection
Organizing video competition meeting( Shi An, Cindy, Jackie, Towfiq, Hiro, Yu Wen, Rey, Me)
Writing Training groups for videos
12 April: Remind the Debate team to go training

I feel like i will get scolded for those in Red by Ms.J
I am not afraid of her, i am afraid for my post XD

Since tml no CCA, i am going to do all of those abv, plus a meeting at 2pm with the entrepreneurship club(Join them for a competition even though i Wushu)

The Problem with everyday is Andrea and Joelle rushing me, which cause me to forget what am i suppose to do -_-

Looks like i have to organize which is more important, friends or future. Any Ideas?

Monday Blues

2008-04-07T07:14:00.000-07:00

Hello, i hate mondays
Today had to wake up early to go for tutiton by Ms. J
First To HAND UP XD, but in my haste, i never wrote name -_-

Class was as usual, fun.(CINDY in the pic)

Thank You Samatha, Eileen and Old Man Glenn for taking care of the box

I remember Samatha had a near crying face when she pass up the wrong hw and is in the process of fixing it.
I told her to call the teacher and the look on her face, i wan to tape it down....XD

Changing into P.E. , Raju ,Jackie and Khairl(i tink) started singing choir, The other guys in the toliet changing either start laughing manically or start complaining(or both). We all went out and kena scolded by teacher XD.I couldn't stop laughing

BTW, Joelle was pissed at me tis morning, lucky she went back to normal, if not i would have a heart to heart talk with her.

Wanda is now known as PPG as she is popular(with the guys, must be a flirt), Perverted(who go seeing ppl eating) and Girl(well she is after all) so can be PowerPuff Girl, XD

Joelle had her parents to fetch(Never giv me lift, humph) so never went home with her

Andrea and I actually wanted to go home together,but there was a miscommunication, so i went home with Jackie

Helped Jackie in a wild goose chase that finally ended -_-

Anyway, i was going thru hw today and found tis :

I am going to Kill Andrea
(Although she said i was a worthy friend in msn, when can i go to her house for FOOD)

Tis is Don/Dawn

Tis is Rey:

Alright i go off liao, night ppl

All is CERTAINY WELL

Special

2008-04-05T06:04:00.000-07:00

HELLO AGAIN Tis is This Wkend's Special Blog, IF U DUN KNOW EVERY
WKEND I WILL POST A BLOG ON SMT SPECIAL OR SOMEONE SPECIAL TO ME

Well, actually i was abt to write something abt the Angel and the Demon of my soul but after pouring out halfway, i decided not to

I will Write abt EVERYONE in My Primary and Kindergarden

Unknowned best fren of Kindergarden- You Taught me that i shall not harm my friends

Cheryl of Kindergarden- Sorry, i am so sorry for what i've done,You taught me never to let go

Form Teacher of P1&P2- You taught me attention bring happiness

Form Teacher of P3&P4- You taught me never to cut ppl's hair XD

Ms Chow- You Taught me how to be cunning and sarcastic and that teachers are also people

Mr Loo-You taught me that even Yoga can't relieve the stress my class give XD

Edward-You Taught me Loyalty

Jonathan- You Showed me your Power of Determination

Unknown chinese teacher- You had faith in me when i had none myself,
You believe in me when no one even myself believe.
For that i hope i never will let u down

Most Important are Highlighted in RED

Ending

2008-04-05T05:31:00.000-07:00

First i Answer the tagboard:
Arnanti: Both of u go GYM ?? WOW, and Respect the Ex-ex Principal
Eileen: Well, If u visit my blog, i will feel guilty if i dun visit yours so.....haha...that is how i found, anyway PLZ UPDATE YOUR BLOG!!
Hids:No lah, I mean let her rub off u abit lah...aiyo

Today Was Fine
When out for Wushu
Found The Sparrow who was trapped in the hall
After entertaining us and getting it's 5 mins of fame
It died
Buried it in the end,Cad was afraid of it XD. I had to bury it alone, said a prayer for it XD

Anyway....
Found out (nearly) everyone is ALL TALK AND NO ACTION
So many say wanna go Wushu training to see the seniors train(optional)
In the End left Mint and Me go only -_-
At 12pm went with Eileen and Mint to the North(MRT)
Mint Left at a earlier stop

I and Eileen went to Ang Mo Kio
FOUND A VERY VERY NICE GAME CALL:BladeStorm: The Hundred Year War
Then found out it is only nice in the first 10 mins(cuz it is repetitive)
After that we went to KFC and met Glenn
We did Hw and studied together
Soon, we started laughing our ass off

After that both of them went out with their own friends, i went home cuz my mum cooked

All is Well

Friday

2008-04-04T06:44:00.000-07:00

What a day, nothing much to explain
Hw
Ecos(yesterday)
Maths(yesterday)
Chem(now)
Phy (Question 1 c)

Tml everyone going Wushu, so i gtg lor. Sigh........
Found Out that Glenn and i play the same Com Stratergy Games(GREAT)
Today Was Fun as usual, Joelle went for Training, Andrea training cancelled but she wanna watch the ppl perform, so i went back first, went to Yuhua for Speech Day.

Met,Xin Yi, Jessie, Oriyana(if i am correct),Kelly, Pei Wen and Various other girls who name i forgot.Sunil,Zil Liang, Terence and various other guys too.well it was nice to say Hi..

Met my old friends Brian and Param, went, things might be photography all the way, but no battery...ended up playing hell lot of PSP XD.After long months of shitty battles, finally i could get kicked and kick real ass in gaming

Today Might End Like tis but,........

MY EX-EX PRINCIPAL
A Great Person who everyone loved( i tink)
A bit blur though
I caught a HUGE BUTTERFLY in a box once
He said: " Nice Bat"
I was Lost for Words
Now he works as a relief teacher in Fuhua Secondary
Here is a Picture of him:
We Loved Him, He is A Great Man
Good Luck, Cher

All is somewhat well

Another Day

2008-04-03T04:45:00.001-07:00

Whew, Finally had enough sleep, felt so good tis morning, i slept at 10.30 last night, haha, more than 7 hrs of sleepXD

Anyway, I found out i had to do RESEARCH for GP Work...I was Like WTF, so today not going to chat on MSN

Changed my songs to more holy and love kinda type

Today hw for me
Ecos
Chem
Maths
GP(Overdue)

Hope i can do Maths and Chem in Like 30 mins

I am involved with tis:
Social Enterprise Project( i tink i wanna drop)
Debate Team(Suicide but i wanna BEAT ANDREA IN ARGUING)
Some X-Factor Wkshop(Learn some very speech type of skill)
Racial Harmony Video(Sheesh ask brian to help!!! XD)

Anyway, sch was good, in the morning, i was singing with Jackie, HAHA, annoyed Elieen

Then after that, Chelsea(not the football team but a girl) sprayed water on me, she is in Andrea's MT class, so i tink i know who gave her the idea.............

Phys was the most fun, since i finish hw faster than teacher teach, Elieen, Glenn, Sam ,Rey and Me Exchange jokes(most was Rey). I laughed the whole way in lesson

After that, Highlight of the Highlights of the day, i met Andrea and Joelle after sch, but they dun wan to go home first cuz raining, i decided to go back first, since Hids was waiting for me

Andrea and Joelle Stole my "little me"!!!! I wonder where in gods name is it

Going to Make Class T-Shirt Plans and Hw manager plans Tml

All is Well

Falling

2008-04-02T03:20:00.000-07:00

Tml going to meet Hids to lend her the Artemis Fowl Books, Long time never see her XD

ANYWAY

This week must be a test

Life has it's up and down, and recently, after 5 wks of sky high, it is down again.

Factors that contribute to tis
-Competition( DO NOT ASK)
-Lack of achievement
-Lack of Sleep
-Lack of Exercise
-Too Much Sweet(artifical High)

O, found out that Andrea B'day Wasn't TODAY, I FOLDED STARS FOR NTH!!!!

if u dunno me:

Hierarchy of Importance

Friends
Time
Responsibility
Work
Food
Sleep

Recently, Sleep has been lagging

Things that keep me in high/Good Mood
Chatting with Andrea and Joelle and (recently) Wanda 1.1
Chatting with ClassMate 1.3
Achievements in Sports or otherwise 1.4
Chatting on Msn Especially good friends 1.5
Teaching 1.6
Chatting with Sis and family 1.7

The closer the number to 1.1 the more important

Sometime i feel like an ASS, JOELLE AND ANDREA DROPS SO MANY HINTS ON SOOOO MANY THINGS AND I CAN'T GET IT ARRGHHHHHHH!!!
CAN'T GIRLS SAY DIRECT LIKE GUYS ??? AHHHHHH!!!

I WILL PRAY TO UNDERSTAND THE LANGUAGE OF ANDREA AND JOELLE!!!!
* YAWN *

All is Well.....zZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZ

Today

2008-04-01T04:12:00.000-07:00

Wow, Today we celebrated Mettiy, Glenn and Jackie, birthmonth!!
Actually suppose to be Birthday but....zzzz very troublesome

Anyway we took alot of photograph

Anyway Tml Is Andrea Birthday, what can u get for someone who has everything?
zzzz, i trying something different, kk,bye

All is well