Angel Guides Us

Saturday, May 31, 2008

Goddamn it

There is nothing good with being nice...

During Chem remedial, took out all my work to let my friends see, and guess what?

Someone took my chem fullscape, and all my work in it and never inform me...FUCK

I was so nice to let them see, and ppl had to abuse it, now i have to redo the goddamn thing

You know, what is the point of being nice to the world?

I help them, do work for them, print for them, scan for them? End of the day? they are so wrapped up in their own problems they dun giv a shit abt the rest of the world.

For what i tink? For a guy to find care and concern, you can't find it in other guys, for they are chasing girls, you can't find it in girls, for ppl will mistaken, you have to find in gfs or smt... and that is stressful tooo

Sry.. i am just so fcuked up abt my situation

All is Nasty

Darkest Before Dawn.
6:00 AM

Thursday, May 29, 2008

I AM SOOO MADDD AT MYSELF

I PLAYED FROM 7-12 midnight... OMFG...OMFG...OMFG!!!!!

I Did not doing hw... I Did not Studying... I Did not EXERCISING

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMFG!!!!!

I am Sooo MADDD AT MYSELF, IN FACT, I DELETED ALL MY GAMES, THAT IS ONE THING GOOD ABT ME, I CAN'T FEEL THE CONSEQUENCES

FEELS DAMN GOOD

NO MORE GAMES,I DUN CARE HOW GOOD IZZIT

I WILL STUDY AND EXERCISE

All is Well

Darkest Before Dawn.
9:28 AM

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Hi fellow readers, i know i havn't been updating much recently, i just been gathering some pictures of my SEL camp and phy remedial

They gave personality profiling and this is what they say:
I should be a :Ski Instructor
My interest is :Law/Politics Athletics

I like this part in it, very true:
Mr Erh may prefer to take on a leadership role and he may assume such a role with a group of friends or co-workers.However,some members of his group may not see him as a leader and may hav some difficulty fully accepting his ways for exercising control and direction over them.

He tend to believe his strength is his efficiency in getting things done through his own efforts,rather than through the shared efforted of working with others

He seldom place alot of value on sticking to strict rules for doing things tha are important to wat he hopes to accompplish. He usually does what he thinks needs to be done when he is faced with what he sees as unnecessary hurdles or restrictions.He is basically quite flexible. He does not feel the need to follow rigid or long-established practices

It also said i am: Non-comforming,Expedient, Lively, Spontaneous,Vigilant,Suspicous,Abstracted,Imaginative, Tolerant of Disorder(my room is an example)

Daniel was Laughing when they say i was quite unrestrained

Here is some pictures

My Home Tutor, look like terrorist(well, she is in the class, terrorize us XD)

Her Helment can't fit so she had to use a scarf to cover the dust flying to her face

Tis is Cindy in a jacket

Tis Is Samantha,

when i first saw her, i tot she is nuts XD, so lively and colourful specs.

Well she is lively and laugh alot, in fact, she laugh the most,

but she can hav black face sometime

Act Cute>>> XD Still Cute

Tis is Glenn, Funny guy in class, close friend of Samantha

He is a monkey, eating alot of banana(No lah, he not monkey, i made up the idea)

Tis is one funny shot i took today
Haha, look at Glenn, I showed them and they laughed till they die-ed

All is Well

Darkest Before Dawn.
8:07 AM

Monday, May 26, 2008

Alright, alright, i am guilty, crap, guilty of returning to an old habit

That is COMPUTER GAMES

Just had my paws on some Dawn Of War SoulStorm and Quake Wars(full version), days ago

As soon as i had it, it becomes an addict.

I hate it

It doesn't gives me knowledge, it doesn't give me society learning, it doesn't solve any problems

It is like honey, where u can run away from your problems for an hour, the sweetest honey

DAMN IT......... at least when i dun do hw but chat with friends, i gain something... i gain nth here

For Playing and for Eating Lunch and for not exercising today, i will miss lunch tml and dun touch the com for a wk. I SWEAR BY THE PHEONIX

The person up there, giv me strength to overcome my addiction, my lack of determination

Darkest Before Dawn.
6:47 AM

Friday, May 23, 2008

Alright, Mr Lonely Man is 80% Working Again XD

Well, saying it all out in the blog helps, since i am not the type to say my problems

Anyway....

Plenty of Work For Holidays

Today kena scolded like hell, for 1 and a half hour we kena scolded, but dunno why, i just feel good today

Thanks Falah, for trying to cheer me up

Hmm, well, i wan to LOSE 10KG IN TIS MONTH, TRAINING..ARGGHHHH!!! XD

I have to do the youth achievement award program or something...VOLUNTEER...AHHH

Well i find Andrea and Joelle for that

Thank Falah

All is Well

Darkest Before Dawn.
4:11 AM

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Well today is a good day, which turn sour in the end

First i lost my PSP,if i was bad.. i will write a whole load of vulgar words here.
I wanted to just emo and think of my lost, it might ease the pain

However, primary school kids were there, they were asking me not to cry(i was in that position but ain't crying)
So i just throw away the problem,buried it deep in my heart and laugh, laugh till i reach home, where it creeps up my soul again.

Then Another major problem that has been bugging me since the dawn of time, i don't know whether u tink it is worst or lesser than your problems but this is my Major Pain to me so listen up

You know the feeling where u find the girl/guy of your dreams and wanna stay with them forever, the feeling of heart pounding, wanting to share every goddamn thing with her/him? Then if she/he rejects u, u tell everyone abt it and emo abt it and hate it till the cows come home?Then if dun hav the courage to tell, he/her u can at least protect her, at least have a goal?

The feeling where you feel that one person is thinking of you most of the time?When there is trouble u can find that person, where he or she is truly yours(at least for the moment) and first place in her heart and u can confide in her

The feeling of having a target in life, where u strive to achieve whatever you wan with your full heart?The feeling that u know yourself in and out and know what u are, and who u are?(etc below)

Well, i believe that i was "quiet", someone told me i was "noisy"(this is a example)
You just lose yourself again, dun even knowing who the heck u are.
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I don't have all this feelings?

At least if i had a goal, i will feel, hate,love,fear,anger,happiness, but all i feel, is the hollow emptiness that comes with the lack of all this feeling

i do feel anger, i do feel hate, i do feel all those feeling, but they are not constant.

If u kena rejected, u will be emo for the longest time ever, or angry for the longest time ever
i lack that, i can find comfort, i can find happiness, but they are like dust in the wind, coming and going in the slightest change

A movie with friends, a outing, lunch together, dust in the wind

dust are easy to grab, easy to fly away, what happens when all the dust goes to their favourite dust?

I wan to feel, sad, happy,anger,fear, hope, get me? i wan to FEEL

I don't know who i am?
I don't know why am i living?
I don't know what the hell am i doing?
And unlike other problems, this problem, only i can fix
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Well if u actually read throughly to the end, my sincere thanks,
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Ok lets buried it all again under the sand

On a happier note, today is CIP day for my class... had alot of fun, only spoiled by the end of my psp

CONGRATS TO JACKIE,SHAMINI,GAYA,JOLENE,SAMANTHA and me

For Making CIP a Success

Congrats to Shi An to be the first guy to know a New Zealand girl first( All the class guys were like, WTF?)

Here are pictures of CIP in primary school

Jackie and Glenn>>>>

Me in the booth>>>>>

Me in the LEAST RIDICULOUS PHOTOGRAPH>>>

It was fun

All is Somewhat well

Darkest Before Dawn.
4:52 AM

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Ok here are some random pictures

My Mood is Above Average, after a low for a few days last week

Tis wk is busy busy busy

As usual of course.
However, what u can't do without your friends?

I went out with jackie and cat on monday to discuss project

In the end project is 20% fun 80%

Today i finally spend some time with Andrea and Joelle, sigh...even if i talk to them, ppl interrupt...

Well, Finally talked to grace.... i tink she forgotten i called her wrong name >.<, lucky

Jackie>>>>

JE KFC

Cat with killer look>>>>

JE KFC

Jonathan year 2 sleeping>>>>>>>

End of Sch

Cindy>>>>>>

Chinese Lesson

Eileen of 08S5 First PICTURE>>> ( Second to the Right)
The Chinese girl under her and beside her is Joelle and Wanda Respectively
Eileen Send the Pic to me one >.<

All is Well

Darkest Before Dawn.
5:43 AM

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Tis Special i Write why Must we always be happy

The World is full of saddness
Everyone is full of trouble
Most People are selfish

Important things in life

Do not aid ppl if u are in trouble yourself, for most ppl won't return the favour and help themselves first

Be Happy always and bounce back quickly for every second u are moody, 5 ppl are worried

Always Smile for always believe that everyone has worst problems than u(That means dun fall into self-pity)

Most of The Time we are angry or sad it is becuz we can't control our emotions, if u are angry or sad, let it out at the correct time, wrong timing will cause worst stuff to happen

THERE IS ALWAYS PPL WORST OFF THAN U

So Everytime I fall into self-pity or saddness, i just remember that everyone problem is worst, even if yours might be worst, others may not be as strong to stand it.

SO IN SHORT, KEEP SMILING

Tml i write abt i go Pulan Ubin, GOOD PLACE, I TINK CLASS OUTING GO THERE XD

All is WELL

Labels: Special

Darkest Before Dawn.
7:36 AM

Friday, May 16, 2008

Well i know i hav been posting problems and close to sad crap on the blog, so today i will be different

Even though today alot of my friends were.....nvm

Tis is Last SUNDAY

Mother's day photo XD

My sis and me>>>

My cousin and me

My cousin and his dad

Most of the Fathers XD

All is Well

Darkest Before Dawn.
8:04 AM

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Hello Ladies and Gents
Monkeys and Gorllias

It is a fine day, cuz finally finish Poster XD

Now i still got problem lah, the skit, i need to find the ppl practice on sat

Now my biggest worry is novelty event cuz i dun even know what the fuck is it

(As i typing tis, i know cuz my senior told me, eggs and all, haha)

Tml will be heck of a day, so i will sleep soon, regardless the cost

Cost is Maths
Chem HW
BUT I DUN GIV A SHIT

HAHA

Alright Go study GP liao, night.... XD

Darkest Before Dawn.
6:05 AM

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Alright, I finally know wat happen when i stress

short term stress-High and Talk Alot
Long term stress-Outburst of Anger and Lack of Confidence

MI has been hectic tis wk and will get worst next wk

Other than usual HW

CIP project-I leader for my group, plan skit, plan board for 34 classes of primary sch kids to see
Have to rush Jackie for Board
Have to rush Shirt for Class
Have to rush class fund collection
Running for House on Sports Day( I Must Be Nuts)
Playing Carrom for class and getting slaughtered

Now i dun even have time to be sad or unproductive, every second counts. First Time in My Life, Feelings is a Luxury
I am like numb to stress or more work, i just keep trying to put 100%
I can't do the things i do when i relax, sigh....

Anyway i Flared up abit at Joelle cuz i was abit stress, Lucky she was understanding

All is Well but stress

Darkest Before Dawn.
6:07 AM

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Today's Special

Happy Mothers Day to All, I will put my celebration photos tml... long story why can't put now so anyway......

Well, If there is one national Anthem for me for me it will be tis song. I will highlight parts of great importance to me XD

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Right Before Your Eyes
Hoobastank
DareDevil the Movie

When the door shuts
Don’t worry about me
Its not attention that I want from you
I need you to trust who I’m gonna be
And in everything I’m going to do

Cause I’m not afraid
Of what I don’t know
For understanding is all that I yearn
What is for sure is I’m gonna to go
I’m gonna to live and I’m going to learn

And I know there will be mistakes that I will make
But I know they’re not worse than chances I don’t take, take
Right before your eyes I am changing, changing
New life on the inside I am changing, changing

When the door shuts
Its shuts in front of me
A new person that I have become
I follow my heart to my destiny
But living in fear and sorrow is done

There will be no more feeling that I’m all alone
I will surround myself with things that help me grow, grow
Right before your eyes I am changing, changing
New life on the inside I am changing, changing

Right before your eyes I am changing, changing
New life on the inside I am changing, changing
Right before your eyes I am changing, changing
New life on the inside I am changing, changing

Right before your eyes
Right before your eyes
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How u tink of it, Plz Tag the Answer XD

All is Well

Labels: Special

Darkest Before Dawn.
7:47 AM

Friday, May 9, 2008

Hello Cute Little Boys and Girls

sry today no pic XP

it is sat afternoon and after 10.75 hours of sleep, i feel soooo good.

Today everyone is busy with I-day, Param going to Photography, Brian with his Classes.
Left me and Jolene, i chat with her abit abt some offline/online thing just 10 min ago.

So i am stuck at home, prepared to go out at Danial's command cuz he is leader for my static display group.

I sms him already, no reply...zzzz do i hav to take the lead again...zzzz.

Anyway, yesterday was a fine day.
Ms J was nice yesterday, never scolded us, instead she talked to us abt funds and stuff. I like her better if she talked and not scold.

O yea i am suppose to find abt HF stuff..chem

Andrea was sick so i had to acc her to the bus stop

I bought my fav chicken.....fat and grease and delicious.. once in a while only bah
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So now i am stuck at home waiting, well at least for once, the world is peaceful. I tink i will do hw today bah.
Try to do 4 ppl's work by myself

O well, tml will be busy, so i should take the breather today.
Happy Wkend

All is Well

Darkest Before Dawn.
10:42 PM

Thursday, May 8, 2008

Studying on Monday i tink >>>

I DUN GIV A SHIT, I WILL POST ONE POST

Tis wk damn busy, were my lowest on wed

Lucky had Andrea, Joelle and Wushu, 3 hours of running away, felt so good for awhile

The class is effective, but lack one thing and it is due to one reason.
We wanna go home fast -_-. So people tend to go home and do. Tis cause a lack in cooporation which i am so worried about.

Now my body and mind is asking me to run, but if even me run from my duties, who will do their's?
Sigh, alright i go check up with my leaders

Anyway The leaders were effective at least. Thanks You Khairl, Khairul, Danial.
We no need encouragment, we do not need fear, we need someone to point us to the correct location.
It is quite exhausting to do that....sigh...link up...sync...plan....

I could just Drop all of them and do hw, but nah, not going to run again

Tis are photos of tis Wk, randomly taken

Glenn>>>>

Daniel>>>

Daniel 2>>>

Jolene and Cindy(Jolene is the one with peace)

Daniel(we were pulling drinks on BBQ)(Just Found it)

My Wushu Captain

Desmond with Marks on his face after he slept

Darkest Before Dawn.
6:32 AM

Monday, May 5, 2008

Today was a baaaaaaaaaaaaaad day. XD

However i dun feel "the knife in the heart" feeling cuz it ain't really hurt that location

Anyway. Chinese was good, got praise for being first and dumb
GP was HELL, cher threaten to go cuz the Lecture theater was so noisy,we didn't quiet down, she went off. I suddenly went "ICE" and fearlessly walked up like i dun giv a damn(if i tink it thru now, i will never go up). I picked up the mic and told off the entire hall of students. There were jeering and cheering but i was numb. Then once i return to seat cuz the teacher came back, i was praise like hell, sooo embarrassing.............
Maths was ok, kena scolded too, but cher scolded with a smiling face... i was like WTF?
Chem was one big scolding, cher said we were the first batch to actually cause her to hav a headache marking our work.
P.E. and afterwards was fun

Sigh... i know i ain't a great leader and all..shouldn't hav gone up, but heck, if the same thing happen, i will hav gone up again, dumb ain't me.-_-

From Primary School till now, life was one big scolding, we were the first one to blah, blah, blah(or negative), we were the worst batch...the worst........ SIGH.... I tot i could change that, i wish i could change that, i wan to be a normal student in a class which ain't the worst nor the best

So i felt an enormous wave of saddness today, some felt anger, some felt fear, but i felt saddness
I don't wan history to repeat itself.....never again

Since so many tag, i reply here(By Date)

Leen: Hello Silence Girl XD, pass NAFRA?

Jolene: O thx, marinate, u help marinate also ah? O yea hor, dun care, i should post your pictures on the net, show everyone a MI MODEL XD

Cat: Cat Eat fish, sooo of course u help finish the "fish" XD, ok lah, u got BBQ too, i add that in XD, happy ^^? Send u pictures....hmm i pass in a Dise

Sister: Who is B? hmm, let me think and i post on your blog, kk XD

HuiJen- Yup HuiJen attitude cuz i really miss your unique personality, haha, but sad too busy, if u free one day, we go out together ??

All is abit well

Darkest Before Dawn.
5:41 AM

Saturday, May 3, 2008

Today is Class BBQ
Well, i went out 10am, came back 12AM.

Bloody Tired............

Morning go meet Glenn, Daniel, Jackie,Jolene and Towfiq

In the end Towfiq never come.

So we all went to Euno and met Rey.

After that we go to supermarket buy bloody lot of stuff and at the same time entertain call for assistance, help and notices.

It was confusing.

In the end went Rey house to marinate chicken, i learn how to gut a squid from scratch XD.

Here is a photo of rey house with Jolene>>>

After that Daniel and Me went to buy Drinks while they stayed back to continue as we both did the least.

It was the bloody worst 1 hour + as we drag 9 bottles of drinks everywhere.

Thank your Aunty for Helping us get there.

Somemore pit so far....took a taxi to reach there

We were so pissed and tired vulgar words like "F" came out

lucky, once we were all together, things went smoothly

Wat i didn't expect
-Ms J never come
-At first 1/3 say can't come, 2/3 can come, in the end 1/3 came 2/3 didn't appear

-No Ice

Glenn Chicken marinate sauce was simply outta tis world
The chicken for the first time in BBQ, i ate like 5 or 6

Wat i didn't expect:(positive):
Yu Wen to come
Guys took off shirt
-A guy i know as Defender from TP came to assist
We played a game where i shouted my ass off as adrenaline rush was high
-The True game was soo good

Special Thanks to:

Glenn-For the Super Sauce of chicken

Rey- For the Use of His house to marina the chicken
Jackie- For His assistance to marina the chicken
Khairul- For The Jokes, to marina the chicken(JK JK)
Khairl-For the Tent
Yu Wen- For the Poker Cards
Chelsea- For the Invention of killer games with cards
Meitty- For Coming and Pinking
Cat- For Finishing the extremely"tasty" fish which was a "little" bit spicy( and helping with BBQ cooking, Is the Meow Happy now?)
Jolene- For Looking like Babe Watch there(Marinate Chicken too)
Defender-For his Experience in BBQ

Lines i remember
"Cat said the Fish was ABIT spicy"(Someone after he/she ate a "spicy" fish)
"U Moron, U Asshole, U MotherF**Ker, U Bitch, U Booch,U Retard, U Holyshit"(Very Dramatic)
":Glenn U *******(after eating a chicken", Replied" Izzit bad?" I said" HELL NO, IT IS DAMN GOOD"
"Paradox, Ms J and Towfiq are the ones who practically begged us to come and yet didn't come themselves"

IT WAS DAMN FUN

Congrats Jackie and Jolene, on ...dun wan to say private

ALL IS WELL

Darkest Before Dawn.
9:56 AM

Friday, May 2, 2008

Wah.. tml BBQ Alot of Stuff to plan

Special thxs to Jackie, Glenn, Jolene and Towfiq for Planning, i did nothing XD

tml i going out with them at 10 to work out the stuff

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I worry abt the class sia, all of them seem damn stress, socially or educationally, need to do the board too but coordination not good

anyway, i hav to worry abt myself first, that is a priority.

Work:
Film Design
Proposal
Board
Class-T-Shirt
Chinese Hw
Chem Assignment 3b and Tutorial 3b

Did i miss out anything?

O yea i watched Ironman with Param and Brian today, 2 hours of thoughtlesss relaxation

All is Well

Darkest Before Dawn.
9:11 AM

Thursday, May 1, 2008

I just couldn't resist the attempt

So Jackie and Me did tis

I hope she dun mind

To all 08S2, Keep Holding On

Cheer Up Everyone XD

Darkest Before Dawn.
8:07 AM