Saturday, July 19, 2008 Darkest Before Dawn.
Today was fine, wushu in morning.
I FINALLY HAVE A WEAPON XD( A Northern Staff), I was like So happy, but only learn 3 steps of the beginning, well, i have patience.
Then after sch, i intended to go to west mall with cindy and xiang lin, however xiang lin was sick, so i remain with him in sch and played PSP together, single combat we were equal, tag battle my psp was spoiled so can't say who is the real winner
However the sch closed at 12.00pm.....at 1.30 i was still playing. I and him were like SHOCKED... Both gates were locked. There was no way out.
So the reason i join wushu came out, i and him managed to climb over the main gate. The height was high, however, after a tiring day at wushu, our legs were like numb or used, so we felt no pain.
After that i watch Hancock with Param and Terence(he insisted and it was the closest timing). it was ok lah.
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Now i found out my problem.
Main Serious Problem, Fear
Fear of heights and feet not on the ground, i hate tis, makes me hestiate.
Fear of saying out how i feel, i have partially cure this, but to those i feel closer to, the words get harder to come out.
( That is why i have a blog, but now, i tink i should say feelings in face or phone)
Although i cure my Fear of Stage, there is a frantic inside feeling, i must cure that...
Fear of talking to people who suddenly say hi and ask a few question(who know my name and i dunno theirs)
All i need is conviction for them to be true, I need to believe
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All is well
6:12 AM