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entry 0003
I find the concept of heaven selfish.
Lets say you are person A and you love person B as a friend/lover/spouse or smt.
Lets say you go to heaven and B does not becuz of reasons like sin or lack of religion.
How can heaven be heaven without that love one of yours? tell me?
I feel that this concept of heaven is of people with selfish desire. To justify that dying isn't that bad for a total lack of anything after death is too scary to understand.
People who decided people who do good deed and go heaven and never think of others and just selfish people who only think of going heaven themselves.
How could you be in heaven if your mum was in hell right? So if you did the most holy deeds in the world and your parents are the worst, ain't it not going to be a good heaven once you died?
My friend told me that man would be too in love with god to wonder about anything else. I say that is not a good reason, you mean i will forget my mum who did so much for me and went down becuz of god? What kind of son am i? What kind huh? i deserve to be in hell that way.
So this controversy makes me wonder...
If i ask people who believe they will go heaven and want to go heaven this question " Would you go to hell if 1000 people go to heaven for your sacrifice, will you do it?"
if they say they won't give up their position, ain't they selfish? Ain't religion talking about selflessness and serving the mass?
So is the right people going heaven? people who wan to enjoy life after death.
And if god preaches sacrifice, after 1000 people go to heaven becuz of you, ain't u suppose to be up there? and if you are up there again, you can do that again and get 1000 more, then won't u get everyone in heaven?
I say, i will go to hell and if i am good enough to go heaven, sent me back to hell, i trade 1000 lives for my soul.
How could i enjoy my afterlife knowing people are suffering? I dun care if they deserve it, god is abt forgiveness, so why isn't it given? Dun tell me it is about them learning their lesson, if god's light is so good to blind my eyes from helping my love ones, ain't it easy to change 1000 people point of view?
So people who die also wanna go heaven, hear me , can you sacrifice your soul to hell to save 1000 souls from hell?
Cuz i will, even though i dun wan to, I will take a sword and shield and face the devil, and even if my legs have became jelly and my hands shaking uncontrollably with fear, i will face hell and i know i will lose cuz i am just a soul but i will do it anyway.
How could i enjoy my afterlife knowing other souls are suffering?
*Note, no offense to anyone, i am just questioning the idea, not the person
7:57 AM
Well, lets begin.
Entry 0002
Title:Revival
Well this is the revival of my blog so, yep i am back. However i dun think this is a good post
Well, wan to talk about hatred and fear. I am no genius, i am just a man, trying his best to comprehend the world around him. Expressing who i am at the same time.
Hatred
Humans always need something to hate so that they can be loved. The balance of nature.
To identify yourself as part of a group, you must do what the group does, even hate others even if it is illogical hatred. Such as some White Americans hating the black. To identify yourself as one group, you need to hate another. Same with an experiment with a close exosphere. The scientist form 2 group. We will always hate others so we can love others.
Hatred is not understanding. Not understand why a person do this or that. A person eating paper is considered crazy and hated or ignored. However to a crazy person it is perfectly logical. Logic is something that means different thing to a different person.
There is only one way to get rid of hatred.
To understand is not so easy. It is to forgive the actions that to you, seem foreign and illogical.
However, if you do it is normal. It is a selfish but normal desire to be part of the group. Even at the expense of others.
I seen what hatred and misunderstanding has done to others. I havn't seen all but, i can say if it is 1/10 as bad as i see it.....
Man and woman ignored. I can only imagine what the pain has done to their mind and soul. Some have broken, others does not. The great thing about it is that they are covered in so much darkness, they can see even a sliver of light.
Sometime i wish i was god and able to split myself into millions and help everyone. After all i bet i contribute to some pain or another, just by the lack of attention
7:23 AM
Well, i guess i will just practice GP and nonsense on this blog.
Well, here goes the unsung pages i will write
7:23 AM
I am not worthy of the last post, i guess it is suppose to be a cruel half-ass life for men, i guess i was just too baby to find out. Well i did now
2:32 AM