Sunday, December 13, 2009 Darkest Before Dawn.
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I find the concept of heaven selfish.
Lets say you are person A and you love person B as a friend/lover/spouse or smt.
Lets say you go to heaven and B does not becuz of reasons like sin or lack of religion.
How can heaven be heaven without that love one of yours? tell me?
I feel that this concept of heaven is of people with selfish desire. To justify that dying isn't that bad for a total lack of anything after death is too scary to understand.
People who decided people who do good deed and go heaven and never think of others and just selfish people who only think of going heaven themselves.
How could you be in heaven if your mum was in hell right? So if you did the most holy deeds in the world and your parents are the worst, ain't it not going to be a good heaven once you died?
My friend told me that man would be too in love with god to wonder about anything else. I say that is not a good reason, you mean i will forget my mum who did so much for me and went down becuz of god? What kind of son am i? What kind huh? i deserve to be in hell that way.
So this controversy makes me wonder...
If i ask people who believe they will go heaven and want to go heaven this question " Would you go to hell if 1000 people go to heaven for your sacrifice, will you do it?"
if they say they won't give up their position, ain't they selfish? Ain't religion talking about selflessness and serving the mass?
So is the right people going heaven? people who wan to enjoy life after death.
And if god preaches sacrifice, after 1000 people go to heaven becuz of you, ain't u suppose to be up there? and if you are up there again, you can do that again and get 1000 more, then won't u get everyone in heaven?
I say, i will go to hell and if i am good enough to go heaven, sent me back to hell, i trade 1000 lives for my soul.
How could i enjoy my afterlife knowing people are suffering? I dun care if they deserve it, god is abt forgiveness, so why isn't it given? Dun tell me it is about them learning their lesson, if god's light is so good to blind my eyes from helping my love ones, ain't it easy to change 1000 people point of view?
So people who die also wanna go heaven, hear me , can you sacrifice your soul to hell to save 1000 souls from hell?
Cuz i will, even though i dun wan to, I will take a sword and shield and face the devil, and even if my legs have became jelly and my hands shaking uncontrollably with fear, i will face hell and i know i will lose cuz i am just a soul but i will do it anyway.
How could i enjoy my afterlife knowing other souls are suffering?
*Note, no offense to anyone, i am just questioning the idea, not the person
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